who?
my inspiration. hm.
well, it appears to resemble a sexual climax that never achieves contractions? i have no fucking idea.
i'm just watching the trailers of what could be. though i can't make out the trailers because i have bad vision.
i am such a retard.
i don't even know what i am talking about.
all i am saying is...i know in my heart that i could achieve something great. maybe not something great for you but great for me! that's all i want. i don't want to make other people happy. i mean, there are a few that i do.
i just want to be happy. i feel like i have a deadline and i do. i feel like my heart palpitating is my clock...
i feel that if i don't use what i have it'll be taken from me. i am not using any of it. i don't even know what i have anymore. maybe i am just depressed. i need something and i can't figure out what it is. i may need some motivating vitamins...some creative vitamins...some over the counter, one a day, woman's vitamin. who the hell knows?
i sat in bed the other night. i made a pros a cons list. you know, some people make them for their significant others...to weight things, to maybe achieve some clarity...something. idk.
i made one for myself!
that's all i am saying.
who does that?
maybe it's winter. i am told that i get like this every year. from the looks of my older entries, i do. i am just a miserable person. but i'm not. i guess, i really don't post here when i am happy because maybe i am too busy being happy to post?
so, i am told that i am just this way, it's a cycle, it will pass, it's okay. well, here's my idea...if winter is what bother's me...i should move somewhere where there is no winter! omg, yes!
duh.
i don't want seasonal depression, i want seasonal mania. maybe. maybe not.
definitely no seasonal depression.
sorry, i am whaaing. i am just trying to gather my thoughts. i am sharing this with whoever reads this. i know a couple of you do. thanks for bearing with me. i appreciate that.
anyway. i am going to go to sleep. my kidneys are aching, i think.
well, it appears to resemble a sexual climax that never achieves contractions? i have no fucking idea.
i'm just watching the trailers of what could be. though i can't make out the trailers because i have bad vision.
i am such a retard.
i don't even know what i am talking about.
all i am saying is...i know in my heart that i could achieve something great. maybe not something great for you but great for me! that's all i want. i don't want to make other people happy. i mean, there are a few that i do.
i just want to be happy. i feel like i have a deadline and i do. i feel like my heart palpitating is my clock...
i feel that if i don't use what i have it'll be taken from me. i am not using any of it. i don't even know what i have anymore. maybe i am just depressed. i need something and i can't figure out what it is. i may need some motivating vitamins...some creative vitamins...some over the counter, one a day, woman's vitamin. who the hell knows?
i sat in bed the other night. i made a pros a cons list. you know, some people make them for their significant others...to weight things, to maybe achieve some clarity...something. idk.
i made one for myself!
that's all i am saying.
who does that?
maybe it's winter. i am told that i get like this every year. from the looks of my older entries, i do. i am just a miserable person. but i'm not. i guess, i really don't post here when i am happy because maybe i am too busy being happy to post?
so, i am told that i am just this way, it's a cycle, it will pass, it's okay. well, here's my idea...if winter is what bother's me...i should move somewhere where there is no winter! omg, yes!
duh.
i don't want seasonal depression, i want seasonal mania. maybe. maybe not.
definitely no seasonal depression.
sorry, i am whaaing. i am just trying to gather my thoughts. i am sharing this with whoever reads this. i know a couple of you do. thanks for bearing with me. i appreciate that.
anyway. i am going to go to sleep. my kidneys are aching, i think.