WOW THAT WAS FUCKING FOREVER AGO!!!!!!!!!
Well yeah that is no more. I am not with Mike anymore that ended about 5 months ago almost. He went to jail because he wouldnt pay is child support. And then a guy that I have wanted for fucking years came out of no where and was like he I want you, be mine. It was one hellava shock let me tell you, seeing how all I had ever been good for was a fuck when he was around me and drunk. And the night we started getting together his exact words where *cause you're here* when I asked why he had kissed me. I already felt like shit because me current boyfriend was sitting in jail and I had just kissed the one guy that he had always been jealous of. And Then I said fuck it might as well be happy while I can even if it only lasts for tonight. And it went on and nothing much happened and then one morning we where laying in bed before e left for work and he rolled over hugged me really tight and said *I want* well that made me melt obviously. I had hard time breaking up with mike but I did it and I had a lot of fears, still do. Considering I left the guy I was with for almsot 2 years, but it was for the better. And I am still way to self concencse I mean I just feel way to fat and ugly for him, he is fucking gorgeous and I am so not. I just waiting for the day tht some lil skinny model chick comes up and takes him away. I stoped trying to be someones *only one* a long time ago, because no matter how much they always ran thru my mind, it was a garranteed fact that they had someone else on theirs. So I said fuck it and just went with it one sided,let them be my only one and when the one they thought of all the time became their worst nightmare, I wasnt the one to blame. I was the one sitting with a broken heart. Sewin the peices back together just so someone new could come along and destroy it
Maybe Just Maybe I can make it thru it one more time before I just say fuck it.
Maybe Just Maybe I can make it thru it one more time before I just say fuck it.