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i know i said i wasn't going to post in this thing anymore, but in case anyone cares to know, this is kind of important. so i'm sharing.
up until last night, i was planning on attending baptist bible college. after looking into it really closely, though, there's no way i will be able to afford it. i guess my parents and i assumed that i would get more help from financial aid or something, but $20,000 a year is intense. therefore. i've decided to go to MCC for a few years first. this doesn't mean i won't ever go to BBC, it just isn't the right time in my life right now. i was incredibly upset about this when i first realized i would have to stay here for college, but after talking to greg, mike, and sam... this is a complete blessing. when God closes one door, you better believe He opens another.
things i am SO EXCITED ABOUT now because i'm staying local:
- let's face it; i love my parents so much. being away from them would kill me. we're so close they're more like friends than anything else.
- i'll still be able to share my faith with my parents better than if i were away
- now i can still go to church at the father's house. no other church has been able to impact me so positively like this one. i love it.
- uhh, hello! i'm no longer leaving my BEST FRIENDS! ali, greg, mike, jordan, kristina, matt, etc!
- now i will be able to afford to do fun things. YAY
- the rules at BBC are INSANE. strict curfews and dress codes, no movies, no dancing, no non-Christian music, NO THANK YOU. =]
- i'm not down with denominations, so i wasn't too thrilled about proclaiming myself to be baptist. it's about the heart, not the title.
- figuring out exactly what i want to do with my life and not spending money i don't have to do it
- actually being able to get a job (hopefully at BORDERS because i absolutely love it there and it's in henrietta, aka near school, parents, haucks, etc.)
- not having to have a roommate, share a bathroom with 5 other girls, or keep my stuff straight and tidy
- MCC has a chorus! i don't care if it isn't stellar. i just want to sing.
- i have wanted to re-do my room for SO LONG and haven't because i thought i was leaving. RENOVATIONNN!
- now i don't have to learn a whole new area or another state's laws and stuff
- now i can vote without an absentee ballot. phew.
- i can give blood without tons of paperwork or transferring stuff from this red cross to one in PA
- pennsylvania has vampires. ;]
okay, so see? there are so many reasons why i DO belong here. even though most of them are selfish or stupid, i wanted to go to a bible school to make myself more usable as a Christian.. but there is nothing i can't learn on my own! if God wants to teach me, HE WILL. i don't need to pay 20 grand to have someone else tell me about my relationship with the Lord. plus, being in such a tiny Christian bubble is basically secluding myself. how do i reach out to people if everyone and their mom around me is already a Christian? hah. it's not going to be easy, but that's faith.
AH! this whole time i was like "God, why aren't you providing the finances to go to this college?" when in reality, He was providing me with something TOTALLY different. my plans were NOT the same as His plans. life would be so much simpler if i just listened to what He was trying to tell me instead of fighting it. you think i would have learned this by now. why am i so freaking stubborn? lol
life is gonna be good.
up until last night, i was planning on attending baptist bible college. after looking into it really closely, though, there's no way i will be able to afford it. i guess my parents and i assumed that i would get more help from financial aid or something, but $20,000 a year is intense. therefore. i've decided to go to MCC for a few years first. this doesn't mean i won't ever go to BBC, it just isn't the right time in my life right now. i was incredibly upset about this when i first realized i would have to stay here for college, but after talking to greg, mike, and sam... this is a complete blessing. when God closes one door, you better believe He opens another.
things i am SO EXCITED ABOUT now because i'm staying local:
- let's face it; i love my parents so much. being away from them would kill me. we're so close they're more like friends than anything else.
- i'll still be able to share my faith with my parents better than if i were away
- now i can still go to church at the father's house. no other church has been able to impact me so positively like this one. i love it.
- uhh, hello! i'm no longer leaving my BEST FRIENDS! ali, greg, mike, jordan, kristina, matt, etc!
- now i will be able to afford to do fun things. YAY
- the rules at BBC are INSANE. strict curfews and dress codes, no movies, no dancing, no non-Christian music, NO THANK YOU. =]
- i'm not down with denominations, so i wasn't too thrilled about proclaiming myself to be baptist. it's about the heart, not the title.
- figuring out exactly what i want to do with my life and not spending money i don't have to do it
- actually being able to get a job (hopefully at BORDERS because i absolutely love it there and it's in henrietta, aka near school, parents, haucks, etc.)
- not having to have a roommate, share a bathroom with 5 other girls, or keep my stuff straight and tidy
- MCC has a chorus! i don't care if it isn't stellar. i just want to sing.
- i have wanted to re-do my room for SO LONG and haven't because i thought i was leaving. RENOVATIONNN!
- now i don't have to learn a whole new area or another state's laws and stuff
- now i can vote without an absentee ballot. phew.
- i can give blood without tons of paperwork or transferring stuff from this red cross to one in PA
- pennsylvania has vampires. ;]
okay, so see? there are so many reasons why i DO belong here. even though most of them are selfish or stupid, i wanted to go to a bible school to make myself more usable as a Christian.. but there is nothing i can't learn on my own! if God wants to teach me, HE WILL. i don't need to pay 20 grand to have someone else tell me about my relationship with the Lord. plus, being in such a tiny Christian bubble is basically secluding myself. how do i reach out to people if everyone and their mom around me is already a Christian? hah. it's not going to be easy, but that's faith.
AH! this whole time i was like "God, why aren't you providing the finances to go to this college?" when in reality, He was providing me with something TOTALLY different. my plans were NOT the same as His plans. life would be so much simpler if i just listened to what He was trying to tell me instead of fighting it. you think i would have learned this by now. why am i so freaking stubborn? lol
life is gonna be good.