oh Katie dear, I understand all that you are feeling. When I broke up with my first boyfriend it was for very similar reasons. He did everything right, was a great guy, took care of me, was sweet, and all that jazz. Yet I wasn't happy, and grew numb to him as well. It hurt so bad to say goodybye to our romantical relationship, and it sucked for a while. I wondered continuously if I made a bad mistake, but eventually the pain decreased, and I was able to reach out to him as a friend...I know right now it seems so impossible that you and Dan will ever reach a point when you can talk again and be friends, but it happens, and if you guys really care about each other then that time will come.
Confusion really sucks dearie. I know, you feel so tormented and feel like every thought in your head is wrong while you find things to justify them all. A lot of stuff is running thru your head, so, I suggest giving yourself a few days just to think things over, see where you stand, cool down a bit, and look and reflect. You'll find an answer, I think.
Like Sara said, a lot of what you are feeling/saying now is very reminiscient of how she felt after her breakup with Don. So maybe this will be something that you needed to do to find out where you and Dan stand, and it might just lead to you finding ways to fix what was going on with you and Dan.
oh caitlin, i'm so glad you understand the aspect of being "numb" to it. it's so awkward! i felt like i knew that i was being a terrible girlfriend, but couldn't force myself to change it! ugh. wow. that whole first section is like.. exactly what i am going through right now. it's so similar, it's almost creepy. about the thoughts, i agree there too. it's like everything i am thinking contradicts something else. i think because it doesn't make sense, it is frustrating me more. maybe that's why i miss dan so much. even if it wasn't perfect, at least it was routine, for lack of a better word. comfortable. i will give it a few days. i know that i can work this out for myself. i think it would be good to figure out what went wrong exactly. then i can try to prevent it in the future. thank you so much - i got your IM earlier, i just haven't gotten back on long enough to respond. and thank you again for your concern and suggestions. it means so much to me to have my friends by my side right now. it feels like everything is changing all at once, so it's good to have things to fall back on. refreshing. i love you too! ♥ =]
Confusion really sucks dearie. I know, you feel so tormented and feel like every thought in your head is wrong while you find things to justify them all. A lot of stuff is running thru your head, so, I suggest giving yourself a few days just to think things over, see where you stand, cool down a bit, and look and reflect. You'll find an answer, I think.
Like Sara said, a lot of what you are feeling/saying now is very reminiscient of how she felt after her breakup with Don. So maybe this will be something that you needed to do to find out where you and Dan stand, and it might just lead to you finding ways to fix what was going on with you and Dan.
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i felt like i knew that i was being a terrible girlfriend, but couldn't force myself to change it! ugh.
wow. that whole first section is like.. exactly what i am going through right now. it's so similar, it's almost creepy.
about the thoughts, i agree there too. it's like everything i am thinking contradicts something else.
i think because it doesn't make sense, it is frustrating me more. maybe that's why i miss dan so much.
even if it wasn't perfect, at least it was routine, for lack of a better word. comfortable.
i will give it a few days. i know that i can work this out for myself.
i think it would be good to figure out what went wrong exactly. then i can try to prevent it in the future.
thank you so much - i got your IM earlier, i just haven't gotten back on long enough to respond.
and thank you again for your concern and suggestions. it means so much to me to have my friends by my side right now.
it feels like everything is changing all at once, so it's good to have things to fall back on. refreshing.
i love you too! ♥
=]
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