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in the end all, and i mean ALL, promises are empty. there isn't a promise that i've made that i want to keep anymore. the way things are going in my life, i shouldn't of even opened my mouth. the reason we cant be friends is because we have to refuse to be attracted to each other, thats the only difference. that and because we know each others true colors. nd because i refuse to accept my own colors, i dont want to be around anyone that know them. its not that i'm confused, its just that every little thing that happens changes how i feel about a person drasticly. i feel that actions speak louder than words, hence me not speaking my feelings, but acting them out. i dont talk about then because all i feel is negitive, always needing reasurence. not wanting the bad truth. but hell all this could be bull shit, since i could never stop you from believing what you wanted to believe, this isn't even worth typing. oh and fyi:
havenwyck 1/27/05 to you refused to take me back and i became suicidal.
army 4/20/05 to went for you came back because i heard that you werent doing well with out me.
harbor oaks 9/3/05 felt like shit after you said that i was as good as ian, overdosed.
hendrie 10/1/05 self mutalation, couldn't stand turning you down because i thought i was moving.
havenwyck 11/25/05 couldn't stand thinking about you being with someone else, drinking, suicidal.
you want me to stop going to hospitals? then stop making me. let me leave your life.
havenwyck 1/27/05 to you refused to take me back and i became suicidal.
army 4/20/05 to went for you came back because i heard that you werent doing well with out me.
harbor oaks 9/3/05 felt like shit after you said that i was as good as ian, overdosed.
hendrie 10/1/05 self mutalation, couldn't stand turning you down because i thought i was moving.
havenwyck 11/25/05 couldn't stand thinking about you being with someone else, drinking, suicidal.
you want me to stop going to hospitals? then stop making me. let me leave your life.