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Theres too many things that i have to say to so many people, but im afraid to say them. im afraid of my feelings. Im so messed up. I dream about a woman who doesnt exist anymore. and since then i don't even feel like I exist either. Why is it that everyone in my life has to compete with a ghost? there's parts of me who want to be damned with the consequences, tell them all whats going on inside me, because I loved someone once. It happens to everyone...right?
I want to tell mom to shove it up her ass sometimes, "your not a bad mother so stop saying it!!"
I want to tell dad to stop doing drugs, hes an asshole when he smokes.
I want Emily to trade in Chris for a new piano, and do it now. because She deserves the best life possible for her and Lorna
I want to tell Jamie to stop taking shit from people who don't care about her, and realize when they don't and stop it the second it happens because she deserves the best this world has to offer
I want to scream in Cassandra's face that i have always loved her, and no matter how hard i try, everytime she enters my mind i get that feeling in the pit of my stomach, the feeling that i could never get with anyone else since, and that asshole Phillip doesnt have the faintest idea who he has, and she's still thinking about going back to the emotional neglect because he says he'll try better, she should know most of all the value of words. I know We all make mistakes, but should we have to pay a whole lifetime for one?
I want Will to stop giving me advice when i didnt ask for it, and that his family is buying him like a slave to carry on the dynasty of the Fisher family.
I hold back so much, because i have to be the strong one, why do i have to be that guy?
I want to tell mom to shove it up her ass sometimes, "your not a bad mother so stop saying it!!"
I want to tell dad to stop doing drugs, hes an asshole when he smokes.
I want Emily to trade in Chris for a new piano, and do it now. because She deserves the best life possible for her and Lorna
I want to tell Jamie to stop taking shit from people who don't care about her, and realize when they don't and stop it the second it happens because she deserves the best this world has to offer
I want to scream in Cassandra's face that i have always loved her, and no matter how hard i try, everytime she enters my mind i get that feeling in the pit of my stomach, the feeling that i could never get with anyone else since, and that asshole Phillip doesnt have the faintest idea who he has, and she's still thinking about going back to the emotional neglect because he says he'll try better, she should know most of all the value of words. I know We all make mistakes, but should we have to pay a whole lifetime for one?
I want Will to stop giving me advice when i didnt ask for it, and that his family is buying him like a slave to carry on the dynasty of the Fisher family.
I hold back so much, because i have to be the strong one, why do i have to be that guy?