Contemplating
So why is it that sometimes I feel that I am one of the only normal people on this earth. Why is it that I constantly surround myself with people who are insane? Okay...not insane...let's say troubled. I just go out to study and everbody I know shows up and has to talk about some problem they are having. I NEED TO STUDY!!! AHHHHH!!! Anyways...it seems like all of my friends have a million problems and always are under stress. With Brie it is homework and the play. I have homework and the play too. I have more homework then she does and yet I don't have mini-breakdowns and mood swings. Maybe I am too normal? Oh my god! That would suck! I don't want to be normal! I look at my life and I don't see that many problems. Sure, I am always busy trying to get everything done and I have college applications and homework and the play and sculpture (which I suck at and have to work ten times harder than everybody else to get my stupid perfume bottle to look like a perfume bottle) but hey...I don't let it get me down. I just look at it all and say, okay, I need to do this and this and this by these certain dates and I get it done.
I would say that my only major problem is that I still constantly think about this one guy, who shall remain nameless, and I can't get him out of my head. It's really putting a strain on my relationship with Rob and I don't know what to do about that, but it isn't immobalizing me. I don't freak out that this guy doesn't think about me the same way I do about him. And it is even nice that way. If he were to turn around and say that he loved me and wanted to be with me I wouldn't know what to say. I would have a total breakdown because I really do love Rob and I wouldn't want to leave him, but then the guy that got away would always be there haunting me and I would feel retarded for leaving that behind.
Okay, Okay, I know I'm rambling, but it's two in the morning and I had a lot of coffee! Time to go to bed now, or play that addictive game the Sims. That game is way too addicting...it is sucking my life force!!!
I would say that my only major problem is that I still constantly think about this one guy, who shall remain nameless, and I can't get him out of my head. It's really putting a strain on my relationship with Rob and I don't know what to do about that, but it isn't immobalizing me. I don't freak out that this guy doesn't think about me the same way I do about him. And it is even nice that way. If he were to turn around and say that he loved me and wanted to be with me I wouldn't know what to say. I would have a total breakdown because I really do love Rob and I wouldn't want to leave him, but then the guy that got away would always be there haunting me and I would feel retarded for leaving that behind.
Okay, Okay, I know I'm rambling, but it's two in the morning and I had a lot of coffee! Time to go to bed now, or play that addictive game the Sims. That game is way too addicting...it is sucking my life force!!!