Hand grenade to my soul has had the pin pulled out
Got new tattoo yesterday. I went with a hand grenade that me and Stallard drew up. I like it. It has the right amount of color in it to make it look good. Fuck the yellow he was going to put in it. I talked him out of it and we decided to use this neon colored green for the highlights.
My life has nothing to it anymore. I want to go to some big city and just run the streets and live in run down buildings. To play in a band and do nothing but make music, tour the world, get laid every night, and get tattoos. I dont know what I want anymore. I want something but I cant have it. I need something but I cant seem to figure out what it is. I do things that upset everyone. I have a personality that attracts everyone but then drives them away. I have a harsh since of humor that people dont like. I seem to never be able to do as Im told. I never make people happy with what I do. I dont like people. Ive never been able to stand by any morals that I set for myself. Im not talkin about morals that god sets. Im talkin about the ones I set for myself. I need to find a place to just set with nothing. A room with no windows. A room with no doors. A room with just one light and a wall full of books that every person on earth should read at least once. I think if I keep up doing as I please I will sooner or later be the reason for a couple of deaths. Ill be the reason for my own death. I want to be different but everything has already been done. Tell me one thing that you can think of thats not already been done by someone else. You get a tattoo, a million other people have one. You get something pierced, a million other people have one. NOthing is new anymore.
Ive feed into the system so long that I hate to even piss in the toilet and flush it. I hate to check and send mail the old fashion way. Fuck the government. They do nothing but make things harder for everyone.
Maybe self-improvement isn't the answer.... Maybe self-destruction is the answer.
My life has nothing to it anymore. I want to go to some big city and just run the streets and live in run down buildings. To play in a band and do nothing but make music, tour the world, get laid every night, and get tattoos. I dont know what I want anymore. I want something but I cant have it. I need something but I cant seem to figure out what it is. I do things that upset everyone. I have a personality that attracts everyone but then drives them away. I have a harsh since of humor that people dont like. I seem to never be able to do as Im told. I never make people happy with what I do. I dont like people. Ive never been able to stand by any morals that I set for myself. Im not talkin about morals that god sets. Im talkin about the ones I set for myself. I need to find a place to just set with nothing. A room with no windows. A room with no doors. A room with just one light and a wall full of books that every person on earth should read at least once. I think if I keep up doing as I please I will sooner or later be the reason for a couple of deaths. Ill be the reason for my own death. I want to be different but everything has already been done. Tell me one thing that you can think of thats not already been done by someone else. You get a tattoo, a million other people have one. You get something pierced, a million other people have one. NOthing is new anymore.
Ive feed into the system so long that I hate to even piss in the toilet and flush it. I hate to check and send mail the old fashion way. Fuck the government. They do nothing but make things harder for everyone.
Maybe self-improvement isn't the answer.... Maybe self-destruction is the answer.