Hi livejournalers.
I'm feeling introspective so I suppose I'll give a little love to my lj.
Recently, I've been spending a lot of time writing in my blogs- on blogspot, that is. Mostly on this new one where I ramble out my thoughts on movies and films that I watch. I try to critique them, but mainly it's to talk about one of the things I truly do love and get excited about: film. And movies. Cinema, to be technical about it.
Here's the introspective part. While I really enjoy the satisfaction of knitting and reading and listening to audiobooks, even housework and taking care of the kitties and cooking, I really love film. I don't know why I've been so dense, but it seems like times when I'm working on something related to cinema I'm really motivated and feel productive. Even if that work is just watching them and writing about them on a blog nobody but my mom and maybe 1 or 2 other people read.
For a long time now I've been really frustrated with life, well, maybe not frustrated, but more like weighed down. Another way to put it is that I haven't felt like I've accomplished much in a looooong time. But I certainly have accomplished plenty. Even my knitting projects don't give me the bang of satisfaction endorphins that they used to once I blocked them. I've also had a hard time finding a group of knitting people to get really close with. All sorts of people knit, but I can't seem to be really excited with any of them. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy the company of my various knitting peoples, but it's just not the same as when Courtney and I can scream and finish each others sentences about a film we both loved.
Of course I'll continue to knit- I do really like it after all, and read and all, but I think that acknowledging how much I need to be involved with cinema is good for me. For the longest time I've been like... well, ugh, I don't have anyone to make movies with and I don't have any good ideas so I guess I'll just not have much to do with cinema. As a result I've plunged myself into knitting. However, knitting and watching cinema in a way that is appropriate and appreciative don't really mix. Most of my knitting is complex so I have to keep my eyes on it. Audio books are great for this, but not movies.
I guess I'm a little shocked at myself. I started this film/movie blog last Friday and have already written in it the amount of content that it took 3/4 months to accumulate in my life blog. I've been going on a cinema-watching binge and have been writing bunches on each thing I watch. Writing a LOT. Like at least a 2-4 page paper on each. None of this "spine-tingler guaranteed to scare your pants off!" kind of reviewing. But a critical discussion. And I love it. I feel like I have something to work on. I'm getting out of the house.
Leaving the house for a distinct period of time to work on watching or writing feels fantastic, and I feel motivated to get other things done.
I guess I haven't felt like I had 'something to do' or 'something I have/had to do' since I 'working relationship broke-up' with Seneca over a year ago. There were pleeeeenty of reasons for doing so, but unfortunately all my vim for making or doing anything cinema related was knocked loose.
Now I feel like I've regained it. Also, hanging out in SheSha and going to Crossroads to get movies that aren't in the library have let me see a lot more of Courtney recently which is grand. Perhaps as I keep this film blog and film obsession going, I'll actually get connected into making something myself. That is, if Courtney doesn't move away to NY too soon. :P.
It seems so silly how I've forgotten about this part of me. I like taking deep breaths and feeling genuine to myself. Then again, seeing as how I'm hanging out in a hookah lounge maybe I shouldn't be taking such deep breaths :P.
OH!
blog is : moviesversusfilms.blogspot.com
I also, would now like to open my comments to everyone telling me something they'd like me to watch and write about, or just watch. Recommendations plz, basically.
(sigh of contentment)
Recently, I've been spending a lot of time writing in my blogs- on blogspot, that is. Mostly on this new one where I ramble out my thoughts on movies and films that I watch. I try to critique them, but mainly it's to talk about one of the things I truly do love and get excited about: film. And movies. Cinema, to be technical about it.
Here's the introspective part. While I really enjoy the satisfaction of knitting and reading and listening to audiobooks, even housework and taking care of the kitties and cooking, I really love film. I don't know why I've been so dense, but it seems like times when I'm working on something related to cinema I'm really motivated and feel productive. Even if that work is just watching them and writing about them on a blog nobody but my mom and maybe 1 or 2 other people read.
For a long time now I've been really frustrated with life, well, maybe not frustrated, but more like weighed down. Another way to put it is that I haven't felt like I've accomplished much in a looooong time. But I certainly have accomplished plenty. Even my knitting projects don't give me the bang of satisfaction endorphins that they used to once I blocked them. I've also had a hard time finding a group of knitting people to get really close with. All sorts of people knit, but I can't seem to be really excited with any of them. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy the company of my various knitting peoples, but it's just not the same as when Courtney and I can scream and finish each others sentences about a film we both loved.
Of course I'll continue to knit- I do really like it after all, and read and all, but I think that acknowledging how much I need to be involved with cinema is good for me. For the longest time I've been like... well, ugh, I don't have anyone to make movies with and I don't have any good ideas so I guess I'll just not have much to do with cinema. As a result I've plunged myself into knitting. However, knitting and watching cinema in a way that is appropriate and appreciative don't really mix. Most of my knitting is complex so I have to keep my eyes on it. Audio books are great for this, but not movies.
I guess I'm a little shocked at myself. I started this film/movie blog last Friday and have already written in it the amount of content that it took 3/4 months to accumulate in my life blog. I've been going on a cinema-watching binge and have been writing bunches on each thing I watch. Writing a LOT. Like at least a 2-4 page paper on each. None of this "spine-tingler guaranteed to scare your pants off!" kind of reviewing. But a critical discussion. And I love it. I feel like I have something to work on. I'm getting out of the house.
Leaving the house for a distinct period of time to work on watching or writing feels fantastic, and I feel motivated to get other things done.
I guess I haven't felt like I had 'something to do' or 'something I have/had to do' since I 'working relationship broke-up' with Seneca over a year ago. There were pleeeeenty of reasons for doing so, but unfortunately all my vim for making or doing anything cinema related was knocked loose.
Now I feel like I've regained it. Also, hanging out in SheSha and going to Crossroads to get movies that aren't in the library have let me see a lot more of Courtney recently which is grand. Perhaps as I keep this film blog and film obsession going, I'll actually get connected into making something myself. That is, if Courtney doesn't move away to NY too soon. :P.
It seems so silly how I've forgotten about this part of me. I like taking deep breaths and feeling genuine to myself. Then again, seeing as how I'm hanging out in a hookah lounge maybe I shouldn't be taking such deep breaths :P.
OH!
blog is : moviesversusfilms.blogspot.com
I also, would now like to open my comments to everyone telling me something they'd like me to watch and write about, or just watch. Recommendations plz, basically.
(sigh of contentment)