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I am mad at brooks. yeah he told me about her(her being Angie, the girl he cheated on me with for about a year) friend and that he now knows what he put us thru blah blah blah.... same old same old. But yeah he told me last night that by mid august he is going to be down here again filling out job applications. I really don't want him down here. brooks wanted me to read my last entry to him and he was all pist off cuz it didn't say anything about him in it.
I said "its not about you its about me."
and he goes "so if i am not a christian you don't want to be with me"
and i said "I just said that I want a christian boyfriend"
well he got mad (what else is new) and he hung up on me. then he calls me the next day saying he now knows what he wants to do, and thats to be with me.
I said "well what if you get here and you decide, yet again, that you don't want to be down here?"
and he goes " well i would rather be unhappy about where i live than be unhappy about not being with you." i told him i don't want to be with you and he kinda ignored it. yeah i called him and asked him about him telling me that she and him were together and he goes "I never said that"
I said "yes you did"
and he goes "well i don't remember"
and i was like "yea you don't remember cuz you tell so many lies that its getting hard for you to remember who you told what and when."
I really don't want him here. I don't know what to do to make him believe me. he thinks that everything is going to be fine and dandy when he gets here but we broke up, I DUMPED him... he has to prove to me that he can be trusted... last night i called him cuz he was suppose to call me when he got to freeport and he was at her house and I said "y r u there?"
he said listening to music but i am going home in a few mins.
and i said "see this is what i am talking about... if you really wanted to be with me you would try to prove it by NOT going to her house and spending the night.,, how am i suppose to believe you that when you get here that you are going to be faithful?"
and he goes" cuz you'll see, Ill be different"
and i was like "you need to be different now... trust and being faithful is about being that way when I am not around. DUH you can be faithful to my face but its what you do behind my back that makes me trust you or not"
he was like "Oh"
he is so dense I swear!!! i just don't know what to do anymore... people are telling me to get a restraining order on him, i really don't want it to come to that.... but I am almost to the point that i am scared of him. I am scared of what he is going to do to me or to the next guy i am with. He can get psycho sometimes...
and i just got off the phone with Angie and she told me that he was there all night until 1pm today. real nice!!!
I said "its not about you its about me."
and he goes "so if i am not a christian you don't want to be with me"
and i said "I just said that I want a christian boyfriend"
well he got mad (what else is new) and he hung up on me. then he calls me the next day saying he now knows what he wants to do, and thats to be with me.
I said "well what if you get here and you decide, yet again, that you don't want to be down here?"
and he goes " well i would rather be unhappy about where i live than be unhappy about not being with you." i told him i don't want to be with you and he kinda ignored it. yeah i called him and asked him about him telling me that she and him were together and he goes "I never said that"
I said "yes you did"
and he goes "well i don't remember"
and i was like "yea you don't remember cuz you tell so many lies that its getting hard for you to remember who you told what and when."
I really don't want him here. I don't know what to do to make him believe me. he thinks that everything is going to be fine and dandy when he gets here but we broke up, I DUMPED him... he has to prove to me that he can be trusted... last night i called him cuz he was suppose to call me when he got to freeport and he was at her house and I said "y r u there?"
he said listening to music but i am going home in a few mins.
and i said "see this is what i am talking about... if you really wanted to be with me you would try to prove it by NOT going to her house and spending the night.,, how am i suppose to believe you that when you get here that you are going to be faithful?"
and he goes" cuz you'll see, Ill be different"
and i was like "you need to be different now... trust and being faithful is about being that way when I am not around. DUH you can be faithful to my face but its what you do behind my back that makes me trust you or not"
he was like "Oh"
he is so dense I swear!!! i just don't know what to do anymore... people are telling me to get a restraining order on him, i really don't want it to come to that.... but I am almost to the point that i am scared of him. I am scared of what he is going to do to me or to the next guy i am with. He can get psycho sometimes...
and i just got off the phone with Angie and she told me that he was there all night until 1pm today. real nice!!!