Freeze the Moment
College stuff depresses me. It's one step forward towards real life. Half the time I can't wait to go to college, but the other half I want to be a kid and enjoy high school while it lasts. It's almost the next year, which means high school is going to end soon. I don't want to leave my high school friends. I guess if you are real friends, you will make time for each other. You will make an effort to see each other and talk to each other if you are true friends. No matter how far, people will still go see their friends especially when we live in a world where communication is high tech.
But why do I plan so much? Why do I plan the whole future out while I should be living in the moment before all my youth vanishes. I should be enjoying every moment right now even if it's the bad, yet I want to know what the future holds. I'm scared of the future; I'm scared of working so much that I forget the meaning of live or not living to my expectations. What if my life isn't what I planned? Where do I go from there? I've seen past high school students that had so much potential, but ended up not what they planned. Will I be able to turn my life around? I feel I do have something to contribute to the world. I don't want to live a meaningless life. Maybe I should stop worrying about the future and do something extraordinary now. It's like planning for prom. Everyone waits for that one special night and once it's gone, it's gone. There's nothing to look forward to anymore. I think I should pretend to plan for some special event that will never come. At least I have something to look forward to, but not completely worry about the future.