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[velveteyez]

I feel like so many things are holding me back right now
from everything I want to do
from being fully happy

with every step I am violently pushed down again

I just want to let go of all these things I worry about
yet I am reminded again and again
Everything I love is slipping from my fingertips

I hate these moments

Why do I feel I always have to be more?
too much is happening right now
I need a vacation
I need to get away
I need a camera that isn't a piece of SHIT.