L'shanah tovah
L'shanah tovah. Today is Rosh Hashanah. Today is the first day of a new year. The year 5768. A year of change. The year I student teach. The year I will graduate. The year I get married. I have faith that this will be a good year.
I am in a much better place than I was last year. While last year Rosh Hashanah ushered in strength, healing, understanding, a season of righting wrongs, it still took time. Last year's Days of Awe were a revelation. This year they are comforting. I have less regrets. I am happier.
This is not to say that these days won't be reflective. It's not that that I think that forgiveness and repentence are not still something to strive for. I am not perfect, no one is. I'm sure there are still things I have done wrong, people I have hurt. But last year I had such issues with forgiveness. The person I had the hardest time forgiving was myself. But finally I came to the conclusion- we are human, we are not perfect, we screw up and hurt ourselves and others. But, if it is just that, if the hurt was caused because we are human, because of normal poor situations and choices rather than maliciousness or vengeance - is forgiveness really necessary? Do we need to forgive ourselves and others just simply being human? This is not to say you can hurt others because you simply don't give a damn - but if you truly care, if you truly do not want to cause pain, if your best intentions have bad results - do you need to be forgiven?
I am in a much better place than I was last year. While last year Rosh Hashanah ushered in strength, healing, understanding, a season of righting wrongs, it still took time. Last year's Days of Awe were a revelation. This year they are comforting. I have less regrets. I am happier.
This is not to say that these days won't be reflective. It's not that that I think that forgiveness and repentence are not still something to strive for. I am not perfect, no one is. I'm sure there are still things I have done wrong, people I have hurt. But last year I had such issues with forgiveness. The person I had the hardest time forgiving was myself. But finally I came to the conclusion- we are human, we are not perfect, we screw up and hurt ourselves and others. But, if it is just that, if the hurt was caused because we are human, because of normal poor situations and choices rather than maliciousness or vengeance - is forgiveness really necessary? Do we need to forgive ourselves and others just simply being human? This is not to say you can hurt others because you simply don't give a damn - but if you truly care, if you truly do not want to cause pain, if your best intentions have bad results - do you need to be forgiven?