Back and writing a long post about it.
Well. I'm back. :waves: I had my internet amputated when I moved back to newcastle but I'm connected again. Sorry, i had no idea it would take so long.
I'm doing ok on the life-in-general scale. I'm a student again, looking forward to getting back to work in the painting studio. Living with 3 shithead drama bimbos but liking the people on my course. No money but I never did have so that's ok.
Not sure about the ED situation, however. I wavered, then went back to restricting but I'm not seeing the results I want. I didnt bring my scales up with me so I'm judging with the mirror and my dress-size.
(Psst, boobs, go away, dont you know you're not wanted here?)
On the other hand I plan to sign up with the campus councellor. Who was reassuringly useless last time but I can then kid myself I'm keeping myself sane and being proactive.
I'm exercising more, which is good, I suppose. Booze is, as ever, my downfall. I could live without solids but I find it hard to go for long without the reality-buffer of vodka.
I also have a cold, which raises the metabolism. So I'm perversely happy about my throat feeling like sandpaper. I was alone in the house for over a month, which was great but, I suspect, a premonition of my future. I've split up with my BF and decided I like being single. Not just single, I like being alone and I'm not going to worry about that anymore. I'm rubbish at sex and romance and I'm too easilly annoyed to share a living space. So I'm going to be an independant woman and a defiant spinster. It's such a relief!
I'm going to steam some veg now and feel guilty about putting some pesto on it. ^_^
I'm doing ok on the life-in-general scale. I'm a student again, looking forward to getting back to work in the painting studio. Living with 3 shithead drama bimbos but liking the people on my course. No money but I never did have so that's ok.
Not sure about the ED situation, however. I wavered, then went back to restricting but I'm not seeing the results I want. I didnt bring my scales up with me so I'm judging with the mirror and my dress-size.
(Psst, boobs, go away, dont you know you're not wanted here?)
On the other hand I plan to sign up with the campus councellor. Who was reassuringly useless last time but I can then kid myself I'm keeping myself sane and being proactive.
I'm exercising more, which is good, I suppose. Booze is, as ever, my downfall. I could live without solids but I find it hard to go for long without the reality-buffer of vodka.
I also have a cold, which raises the metabolism. So I'm perversely happy about my throat feeling like sandpaper. I was alone in the house for over a month, which was great but, I suspect, a premonition of my future. I've split up with my BF and decided I like being single. Not just single, I like being alone and I'm not going to worry about that anymore. I'm rubbish at sex and romance and I'm too easilly annoyed to share a living space. So I'm going to be an independant woman and a defiant spinster. It's such a relief!
I'm going to steam some veg now and feel guilty about putting some pesto on it. ^_^