Gasoline into the fire...
Getting beyond frustrated with things.
Started tearing stuff apart and redoing. Working on CDs. Putting them all onto my Ipod and reworking the organization. Genre based with some, groups of CDs of a particular artist, etc.
Dating site thing isn't panning out. I'm pretty much second date proof it seems like.
Just about all of my second dates have turned into friend dates.
Had a second date with someone I was interested in, was giving signals or whatever you want to call it. He either didn't get it or wasn't interested.
Guy i've been talking to since pretty much dating site day one is starting to get distant.
He'll send me articles and initiate sometimes, and then I wont hear from him.
He is a very attractive person, mentally and physically. He can do better then me, maybe he is already dating that person.
Trying to cut down weight, still can't do much physically due to the stupid fucking tumors.
Was down to 205 this morning. Maybe i'll be under 200 by my birthday.
Sidebar, I would like the lottery gods to give me the birthday present of winning so that the stress in my life wont be financial anymore. I would just tuck it away and keep living my life like normal, probably splurge to finish my tattoo, possibly go for a vacation if my boss will let me take a day off.
Some things are unlikely such as lottery winning, being in a healthy relationship, or having a day without a headache.
But somehow, despite it not being likely, I hope for those things.
I guess i'm just as stupid as I ever was.
Started tearing stuff apart and redoing. Working on CDs. Putting them all onto my Ipod and reworking the organization. Genre based with some, groups of CDs of a particular artist, etc.
Dating site thing isn't panning out. I'm pretty much second date proof it seems like.
Just about all of my second dates have turned into friend dates.
Had a second date with someone I was interested in, was giving signals or whatever you want to call it. He either didn't get it or wasn't interested.
Guy i've been talking to since pretty much dating site day one is starting to get distant.
He'll send me articles and initiate sometimes, and then I wont hear from him.
He is a very attractive person, mentally and physically. He can do better then me, maybe he is already dating that person.
Trying to cut down weight, still can't do much physically due to the stupid fucking tumors.
Was down to 205 this morning. Maybe i'll be under 200 by my birthday.
Sidebar, I would like the lottery gods to give me the birthday present of winning so that the stress in my life wont be financial anymore. I would just tuck it away and keep living my life like normal, probably splurge to finish my tattoo, possibly go for a vacation if my boss will let me take a day off.
Some things are unlikely such as lottery winning, being in a healthy relationship, or having a day without a headache.
But somehow, despite it not being likely, I hope for those things.
I guess i'm just as stupid as I ever was.