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December.
My skin is really bad right now. The dry, cold conditions are no bueno. I ordered samples of some of the Paula's Choice stuff Rachel suggested. Hopefully I won't have a horrible reaction to this, and maybe it can help.
In the last year, I've noticed this odd trend for people who have keratosis pilaris. Approximately 40% of the world's population has the genetic disorder, but most of those people have such a mild condition that regular exfoliating makes it disappear.
Mine is an extreme condition. I read stories about people who got it when they were teenagers, and how horrible their life became because they were 17 and suddenly got it.
I've had it since I was a toddler. So this whole KP as a buzzword in specialty skin products makes me feel really... bitter. People talk about it as some casual coffee conversation. Like some sort of a conversational complaint.
I had. I remember the names of the people who started the rumors. I remember the looks I would get because I had bumps on my skin. The shunning.
I remember in high school chorale, my soprano partner putting me down. She called me a science experiment freak, wanted to take me into her biology class for her presentation because my skin was so gross. All because I talked to the tenor next to us. Of course it wasn't a simple jealousy thing. There was a bet between her and some of the other sopranos to see who could get him to ask them out to homecoming first. Winner got $20. First she used the biology thing to shut me up so she could flirt with him.
Then I told him about the bet.
And all four of them did it out of spite from that point on.
I can't blame other people about my self esteem, or lack of self confidence in my appearance. They could be a catalyst, but it is a weakness in personal character that causes the catalyst to work. I can't blame them for how I felt because they were ignorant. But that doesn't mean there isn't a giant part of me that wants to yell at them. Show them how their insensitive comments shaped me as a young person and on into an adult. Show them the damage their comments produced.
Mer.. D:
Need to re-focus. I have finals to get ready for.
My skin is really bad right now. The dry, cold conditions are no bueno. I ordered samples of some of the Paula's Choice stuff Rachel suggested. Hopefully I won't have a horrible reaction to this, and maybe it can help.
In the last year, I've noticed this odd trend for people who have keratosis pilaris. Approximately 40% of the world's population has the genetic disorder, but most of those people have such a mild condition that regular exfoliating makes it disappear.
Mine is an extreme condition. I read stories about people who got it when they were teenagers, and how horrible their life became because they were 17 and suddenly got it.
I've had it since I was a toddler. So this whole KP as a buzzword in specialty skin products makes me feel really... bitter. People talk about it as some casual coffee conversation. Like some sort of a conversational complaint.
I had. I remember the names of the people who started the rumors. I remember the looks I would get because I had bumps on my skin. The shunning.
I remember in high school chorale, my soprano partner putting me down. She called me a science experiment freak, wanted to take me into her biology class for her presentation because my skin was so gross. All because I talked to the tenor next to us. Of course it wasn't a simple jealousy thing. There was a bet between her and some of the other sopranos to see who could get him to ask them out to homecoming first. Winner got $20. First she used the biology thing to shut me up so she could flirt with him.
Then I told him about the bet.
And all four of them did it out of spite from that point on.
I can't blame other people about my self esteem, or lack of self confidence in my appearance. They could be a catalyst, but it is a weakness in personal character that causes the catalyst to work. I can't blame them for how I felt because they were ignorant. But that doesn't mean there isn't a giant part of me that wants to yell at them. Show them how their insensitive comments shaped me as a young person and on into an adult. Show them the damage their comments produced.
Mer.. D:
Need to re-focus. I have finals to get ready for.