Fanfiction: Bittersweet Symphony
Hello all. Operaghost1987 here. I come bearing a Brian/ Curt fanfic. Enjoy!
Title: Bittersweet Symphony
Pairing: Brian/Curt
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognize, though I wish I did :) Title comes from a song by The Verve.
Summary: Brian reflects on life after "death" and the "Death of Glitter" concert. Part 2 of my Ulterior Motives series
Author's Note: This is a sequel to my fic The Truth, which can be found here, but should still be able to stand on its own. Enjoy!
Well, I did it. I finally ended the tour (and my "life") so we could be together. I thought this was the perfect way to get out of the cold grasp of fame so I could be with you, Curt, my one true love.
I can only imagine how you felt when you discovered that I had "perished." I meant to tell you that it was all a ploy as soon as it occurred, that I did it because I love you, but I couldn't. You see, almost immediately after it happened, everything came crashing down around me.
I expected my fans to desert me. After all, they thought I was great, and then I betrayed them by "killing" myself. However, I never expected Mandy to desert me. We never had what you would call the best of marriages, but she always stuck by me, through thick and thin.
All of a sudden, she came in with divorce papers. Instead of apologizing like I should have, I acted like a complete asshole. I even went so far as to laugh when she cried and stirred up a cloud of cocaine dust. I was high at the time, but that was no excuse for my actions.
After Mandy left, I thought long and hard about what I needed to do next. Then, it dawned on me: you. I needed to find you so we could be together. Now that my career was no longer an issue, we could be together forever. I then remembered that you would be performing in the "Death Of Glitter" concert. I decided that the concert would be the perfect time for the two of us to reunite and continue our life together.
Now that I knew where I could find you, I had to figure out a way to get into the concert. I decided that I had to wear a disguise. I opted for a trench coat and fedora. Cliché, I know, but it was the only way that I could get into the concert without my former fans attacking me.
Finally, the night of the concert arrived. I donned my costume, and headed out to the concert I was able to sneak in without any trouble. Once I saw that nobody noticed me, I breathed a sigh of relief. However, Mandy did see me for a moment. Our eyes met, and she gave me a look that said that she was pissed off, and reasonably so. After that tense moment, she turned away, and again I breathed a sigh of relief. The show finally began, and I stood patiently in the back, waiting for you to take the stage. All the acts were great, especially the Flaming Creatures, but I eagerly waited for your set.
After what seemed like an eternity, I saw you make your way to the stage. God, you were so gorgeous. Then again, you always were. I watched in excitement. Your whole set blew me away, just like the very first time that I saw you in concert over four years ago. Then you came to the final song in your set, a song known as "Gimme Danger."
I stood there in shock. That song was about you and me! I began to feel even worse about the pain that I had inflicted upon you. It all came down around me when you locked eyes with me while singing that powerful line "I wanna feel it." I looked into your face and saw the pain in your eyes, and I felt the pain and anger in your vocals. It became too much for me, and I knew that I had to leave the venue before I broke down and cried. Sure, my exit looked nonchalant, but as soon as I got out of sight, I began to sob like there was no tomorrow
I finally realized how much I hurt you, and I vowed that I would reunite with you as soon as possible. But first, I recorded "Tumbling Down." The song may have sounded nonsensical, but the title describes about how I felt after I lost you. Curt, I know that somehow we will be together again. I can't wait to show you that I have changed for the better. The arrogant Brian Slade is long gone, and I can't wait for you to meet the new me.
The End