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So... I'm dating Newt now. Happy... I don't want to go on about it because it's cheesy, and I have cherries to pit, but wow... I didn't think that I could be this happy with anyone for a long time. After Peter and I didn't work out, and I was so convinced that we were perfect, I thought that I was just shit outta luck. And then Newt....
I'm trying to work on calling him Joshua. Or at least Josh. Joshua is such a pretty name, but I'm just so fucking used to Newt. It's a slow process.
And for those that don't know, I'm having my party at my dad's this Saturday. I'm looking forward to that. A day in the sun with friends and fun times. Dirt bikes, swimming, and drinking. Good times, good times. And of course everyone is welcome.
Last weekend was a whole lot of fun. I spent it at Rough River with my kids.... swimming, fishing, eating. And I got to hang out with Kris. We'd never really talked before, and I'm so glad we got to bond over the weekend. He's a really great guy. I think genuine is the best way to describe him. A real good kid.
And I was glad I got to spend so much time with Shannon. I've realized how much I'm gonna miss the guy when he leaves. I've never been away from Shannon for more than a month since I've known him. And he's one of my best friends. One of the few people in my life that knows just about everything there is to know about me. And great with the objective advice. I'm gonna miss my Shannon. And I think he's realized that he's gonna miss me. Really realized it. He told me a few weeks ago that he realized that he was insensitive at times (which he definitely is) and that he hasn't really been making any effort in our friendship. That he didn't really know who I am anymore, and that he really wanted to. That started the tears flowing. He's been so sweet and caring lately. It's gonna make me miss him more though. Bastard. I love that guy so much. He's such an amazing individual. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him.
Speaking of missing... Damnit! I miss Peter!! He was a part of my eveyday life. I understand that it can't be like that right now, but a part of me is kinda on hiatus. I miss his giggle, his hugs, and his expressions when he sings his heart out into the microphone in my car. His smile, his ideas. I just want to hear a "hello, i'm doin fine." But I can't be selfish. Whatever he needs to make himself happy. I hope he's on that path. And that I'm somewhere near the end.
Other than that.... I need a job. I hate job searching. It gets old really fast.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK!!!
I'm trying to work on calling him Joshua. Or at least Josh. Joshua is such a pretty name, but I'm just so fucking used to Newt. It's a slow process.
And for those that don't know, I'm having my party at my dad's this Saturday. I'm looking forward to that. A day in the sun with friends and fun times. Dirt bikes, swimming, and drinking. Good times, good times. And of course everyone is welcome.
Last weekend was a whole lot of fun. I spent it at Rough River with my kids.... swimming, fishing, eating. And I got to hang out with Kris. We'd never really talked before, and I'm so glad we got to bond over the weekend. He's a really great guy. I think genuine is the best way to describe him. A real good kid.
And I was glad I got to spend so much time with Shannon. I've realized how much I'm gonna miss the guy when he leaves. I've never been away from Shannon for more than a month since I've known him. And he's one of my best friends. One of the few people in my life that knows just about everything there is to know about me. And great with the objective advice. I'm gonna miss my Shannon. And I think he's realized that he's gonna miss me. Really realized it. He told me a few weeks ago that he realized that he was insensitive at times (which he definitely is) and that he hasn't really been making any effort in our friendship. That he didn't really know who I am anymore, and that he really wanted to. That started the tears flowing. He's been so sweet and caring lately. It's gonna make me miss him more though. Bastard. I love that guy so much. He's such an amazing individual. I hope he knows how much I appreciate him.
Speaking of missing... Damnit! I miss Peter!! He was a part of my eveyday life. I understand that it can't be like that right now, but a part of me is kinda on hiatus. I miss his giggle, his hugs, and his expressions when he sings his heart out into the microphone in my car. His smile, his ideas. I just want to hear a "hello, i'm doin fine." But I can't be selfish. Whatever he needs to make himself happy. I hope he's on that path. And that I'm somewhere near the end.
Other than that.... I need a job. I hate job searching. It gets old really fast.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK!!!