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My dad's been in the hospital. Nobody really knows why. Something to do with his diabetes I think. I don't know when he's coming home.
I went to pilates this morning with Mike's mom. She's so sweet. She surprised me with a month's unlimited tanning and a bottle of tanning oil. I know I shouldn't do it, especially right before trying to get a job in the esthetics field, but I HATE being pale. Pale always looks sick to me I never got that whole "cool to be pale" trend. Whenever I try to tan naturally nothing happens though. I don't get burnt or tan or anything I just stay gross white. So maybe a month of baking in a little box will do the trick.
I miss Mike, but I know if I get back with him I'll just get freaked out again. Some people just aren't cut out for relationships and I'm one of those people. I'd rather be with someone without the title and shackles attatched. Nothing's really changed though. We still go out on dates and talk on the phone. We still kiss and he still makes me knees go weak. He's such a great man. I was telling his mom today that he told me she's his best friend. That's so impressive that she raised a good, strong, compassionate, smart man. The perfect guy. And she did it while maintaining a friendship with her son. Most parents don't get to be friends with their kids. She managed to be a friend and still not allow him to end up being an asshole.
She was touched when I told her that. I knew she would be. If my son went around telling his friends/girlfriends that I was his best friend I'd probably cry. It's not even like he's a "mama's boy" by any means. He's quite independent. He just tells her everything because he respects her opinion, and in turn she encourages him to make his own decisions. She's completely non judgemental. His entire family is so welcoming and lovely. I adore them.
I'm really lucky that such a wonderful, loyal guy is so in love with me. I wish it was enough.
I went to pilates this morning with Mike's mom. She's so sweet. She surprised me with a month's unlimited tanning and a bottle of tanning oil. I know I shouldn't do it, especially right before trying to get a job in the esthetics field, but I HATE being pale. Pale always looks sick to me I never got that whole "cool to be pale" trend. Whenever I try to tan naturally nothing happens though. I don't get burnt or tan or anything I just stay gross white. So maybe a month of baking in a little box will do the trick.
I miss Mike, but I know if I get back with him I'll just get freaked out again. Some people just aren't cut out for relationships and I'm one of those people. I'd rather be with someone without the title and shackles attatched. Nothing's really changed though. We still go out on dates and talk on the phone. We still kiss and he still makes me knees go weak. He's such a great man. I was telling his mom today that he told me she's his best friend. That's so impressive that she raised a good, strong, compassionate, smart man. The perfect guy. And she did it while maintaining a friendship with her son. Most parents don't get to be friends with their kids. She managed to be a friend and still not allow him to end up being an asshole.
She was touched when I told her that. I knew she would be. If my son went around telling his friends/girlfriends that I was his best friend I'd probably cry. It's not even like he's a "mama's boy" by any means. He's quite independent. He just tells her everything because he respects her opinion, and in turn she encourages him to make his own decisions. She's completely non judgemental. His entire family is so welcoming and lovely. I adore them.
I'm really lucky that such a wonderful, loyal guy is so in love with me. I wish it was enough.