I haven't written in years.. not that anything I wrote was "deeply and importantly talented"; it just hurts sometimes, I miss it. I'm really glad to see that you're still writing steadily.
I was 18. Falling is actually one of my biggest fears.. not the consequence, but the actual experience of falling. Like, playground swingsets frighten me, but I don't care about potentially breaking my arm from the fall, just that 3 second sensation before I hit the ground. The weekend before we went away to college my friend convinced me to jump off "Black Bridge" above the Delaware River, and said all I had to do was keep my legs straight. She jumped, shrieked, hit the water laughing. Our two other friends followed. Then I got to the edge, looked down, and knew I wouldn't be able to keep my legs straight. So I basically accepted I was about to die, and fell, ass first. It fucking hurt! But I'm an idiot, really. I would do the same thing tomorrow. 20 Seconds of Joy looks incredible, and I assume you have better control over your body in times of crisis then I do. Do it!
Actually, I write very rarely these days. And 85% of it is complete crap. But I know what you mean- it feels good when you break through that staleness and at least get something out. Do you think that fear has something to do with the unknown element of falling? Like, not necessarily the unknown consequences but the actual act of falling being unfamiliar. It would be interesting to find out, if there were a way within reason. I can't wait for 20 Seconds of Joy to come out- it will be sometime later this year. How are you, otherwise?
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I was 18. Falling is actually one of my biggest fears.. not the consequence, but the actual experience of falling. Like, playground swingsets frighten me, but I don't care about potentially breaking my arm from the fall, just that 3 second sensation before I hit the ground. The weekend before we went away to college my friend convinced me to jump off "Black Bridge" above the Delaware River, and said all I had to do was keep my legs straight. She jumped, shrieked, hit the water laughing. Our two other friends followed. Then I got to the edge, looked down, and knew I wouldn't be able to keep my legs straight. So I basically accepted I was about to die, and fell, ass first. It fucking hurt! But I'm an idiot, really. I would do the same thing tomorrow. 20 Seconds of Joy looks incredible, and I assume you have better control over your body in times of crisis then I do. Do it!
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I can't wait for 20 Seconds of Joy to come out- it will be sometime later this year.
How are you, otherwise?
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