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[vella_hinda]

im feeling a little sad....i saw someones sn on when i got back and got excited but the thing had froze and he wasn't really on...basically i dont really know this guy but i would like to get to know him better....problem is i haven't seen him in a week and i dont know if he feels the same way...i haven't had a crush like this on someone since erik...and yea i know it hasnt been all that long but it really feels that way...we've been broken up since september and it wasn't until honestly like since i met these boys that i have felt like i could actually move on....like i hung out with erik this weekend and it was fine i wasn't upset i didnt feel weird or anything...not sure on his part but i was fine....i think i'm just afraid that i let myself be open again to feeling something for someone else and that i'm going to get hurt again and just in the fact that he doesn't like me the same way

im being stupid i know...but i want to be more than just a girl the guys flirt with...blah blah blah i should just shut up suck it up and get over it all