Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
Grrrr.... My weekend with Cyndi has been foiled. How rotten and perverted the world is! I couldn't get my Fiero in good running order but my parents already had plans to visit rapid. Would have worked out perfectly but my dad decides having his furnace fixed on his project house this weekend is more important. They may go next weekend instead, but I really had my heart set on spending the weekend with Cynthia and Chloe. Feels like I haven't seen them in months. They're like my family so it's not easy to be away from them all the time. Hopefully that will change in the near future. Anyhow, I just got back from another 2 mile hike to the post office. Sent Cyndi 3 mixed cd's I've been working on. Hopefully it'll keep her busy for awhile. She wanted me to write about what my ideal situation would be. I'd planned on sending it with her cd's but I was eager to send them right away. So I've been thinking about this question for the past couple days and have come to some conclusions. I'm always hesitant to write about stuff like this because it's an important thing to consider and I don't want to get it wrong. In terms of my ideal situation, there are a few things that stand out in my mind, and I'll try to address them in order of priority. First and foremost, I need to be physically fit and healthy in both body and mind. Unless I can maintain a proper balance, I am useless to myself and others. Secondly, I want to be involved in a healthy relationship that makes me feel like I am growing as a human being. The person I choose to share my life with must be faithful and intelligent. Someone who challenges me to better myself. She must have beauty beyond measure and a quick wit. And also, her name must be Cyndi. I have decided after countless hours of consideration that this woman should be an integral part of my life, as she is everything that I require and more. Her daughter Chloe has also been a positive influence in my life and she has given me cause to look within and consider who I am and where I come from more closely. Her innocence and brutal honesty is always cherished and I look forward to seeing her grow into a woman who is independent and strong like her mother. These feminine influences in my life are crucial to my development as a human being. Their grace and beauty has and will forever serve to enrich the very fabric of my soul. Thirdly, in my ideal situation I wish to actively pursue the martial arts, visual arts, and music. These are also crucial factors in my pursuit of contentment. They allow me an avenue to purge negative emotion and to harness positive energy in order to create something beautiful. The martial arts are especially important because it counteracts my anxiety and the fast paced chaos that circulates in my head. It helps to ground me. The visual art and the music I create serves much the same purpose. It gives me something tangible. Makes me feel like a creator of sorts. More to come....