Update
Wow, i stopped writing in this thing a long time ago.
Just in case anyone is interested, here is what happened,
-Moved in with my boyfriend
-Got a cat
-Graduated college: Environmental studies, political science double major
-Got a job in Portland
-Sort of started packing
-Going to Europe for 3 weeks in august
And all of this accomplished with small spurts of sobriety and long stretches of anxiety. at least it's done and i feel accomplished.