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most of the time, i just wish i was wanted, at all, by anyone, anywhere. yeah, pipe dreams i know (no pun intended) but sometime i think it would be nice to be wanted. to meet someone who's interested in me and my opinions and interests, who can see past some homely average girl. who would understand my addictions, not just to intoxicants, but to knowledge, books, and politics. i wish i had somewhere to go right now.
It sounds weird but the stars seemed to be shining mournfully this morning, i saw a few as the sky cleared. A sunrise is a really fantastic event. All night long the sky is an inpenatrable dark, almost, comforting blanket. Then the blanket slowly lightens in an eerie way, like an envelope opening and letting sun in somewhere over the harstad paking lot. then there is a mass movement of clouds in one way or another, the heavy black clouds move in or out, and for just a minute or 2 every morning, there is a time when you can see blue sky, even in fall. that is my least favorite part of the sun rise because somehow it feels reprehensive. when i witness something triumphant like that bastardly sunrise, it never fails to make me feel very small and futile.
It sounds weird but the stars seemed to be shining mournfully this morning, i saw a few as the sky cleared. A sunrise is a really fantastic event. All night long the sky is an inpenatrable dark, almost, comforting blanket. Then the blanket slowly lightens in an eerie way, like an envelope opening and letting sun in somewhere over the harstad paking lot. then there is a mass movement of clouds in one way or another, the heavy black clouds move in or out, and for just a minute or 2 every morning, there is a time when you can see blue sky, even in fall. that is my least favorite part of the sun rise because somehow it feels reprehensive. when i witness something triumphant like that bastardly sunrise, it never fails to make me feel very small and futile.