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[velcropunk]

I prayed the prayer of hope
over him
I prayed that faith would arise
within my soul
for him
I stared at his face
though i knew the outcome
for him

why does God choose some
to take on
harder loads than others
why must Dan realize that
his son
Is with God
why is this not comforting
to anyone
but God

I wonder where He is sometimes when i hurt. I wonder what he is doing. what he is saying. Who he's comforting when it doesn't feel like he's comforting me.

A kid i've prayed for, for about a year now passed on saturday. Leukemia had it about 2 years i think he was like 5. I met him once, but one glance in his eyes and i was captured. I knew God desired to heal him but i guess i didn't understand the way he would. my heart breaks over this.

Isaiah 55 talks of God's way's being different than ours. Thank God because if i had control or if my ways reigned we'd all be screwed.

i just want Jesus. Raw uncut unhindered Jesus.

Today was a monumental day. My call to Kosova finally made sense. I realize why i'm called there. Why God chose someone like me. Why i went through what i did. The liberation of women...enough said for now.

Praise God that his timing and healing is perfect above what we can see.