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Blergh, too much coffee. Stomach hurty. But Caleb isn't in today (finishing a term paper, apparently - procrastinator :p) and Bernice made extra coffee since he loves to drink it, so we didn't want it to go to waste and I had about twice as much as I do even on days where I DO drink coffee, which isn't every day.
How you know your crappy work coffee is working:
[ ] You feel more alert
[ ] You yawn less
[x] Three hours after you drink it you get sudden intense intestinal distress and stomach cramps
Will go grocery shopping, pick up mats ingredients for http://www.cookstr.com/recipes/oven-roasted-pork-butt-with-rosemary-garlic-and-black-pepper because it looks super delicious and also lol butt. Maybe take some small red potatoes, quarter them and roast them with olive oil and extra rosemary, because I am sure I will have some herbs left. Always do, when I get fresh herbs. Orzo with marinated artichoke hearts and parmesan. Oooh. Won't make it tonight, though. Right now I am feeling very not-foody. But will be good to have later in the week.
See, the problem with having a wrap and fries and drink for lunch (instead of Slim Fast, fiber bar or Lean Cuisine) is, usually I don't feel like eating for the rest of the day. At all. So I go to the store and sure, I'll spend $40 for the week when I've allocated $100 and half of that is for the cats anyway and I feel really super about saving so much money (and slightly nauseated by so much food around when I don't want to even think about food). Then it gets to Thursday and I've had a week of Slim Fast and fiber bars and Lean Cuisine and also soup (or nothing) for dinner and then I snap and become I AM VEL THE EATER OF WORLDS I MUST CONSUME. And open the cabinet and go ...oh right. :<
Mom called, said she just wanted to tell me she loves me. I said nothing. Such a depressing turn of events.
...and actually, yeah, depressed does describe it. Don't feel like I have my apartment together, or my debts, or my life. Think I'm doing okay with the budget and then wham, unexpected (potential) large expense. Make plans to take the rent check down days before it is due, forget, pay as soon as I remember and including the fee, and yes, it's only the second time I've been late in three years (and the first since I went on the lease on my own) and it was only late by a day but still, no excuse. Slipped my mind, that's all I can say. So many things are slipping my mind. Have the number for the old therapist, but even if I could afford her (and expense means I don't want to buy anything at all) she wasn't able to do fuck-all the first time around, so I couldn't justify trying it again. Mostly just want a hug. Won't fix my money issues or how I forget someone not minutes after telling myself to remember them, or how even though I literally only have 2 empty bowls and 3 spoons and a soup pot in the sink from the last week I can't find the energy to wash them, or vacuum with the sucky non-sucky vaccuum, or get all the empty packing boxes taken out that I've been meaning to for months, or put up the clean laundry that's still folded on my bedside table. Just hang it up! The hangers are right there, the closet is right there, just do it! >_< Mmm...no, don't wanna.
What is wrong with me :/
At the very least, though, I went into the wrap shop and the guy was like "the usual?" and I was like "yep" and it was exactly right and they always just trust me to tell the guy at the end extra cheese and I always do and...well, someone knows who I am. That's something, I guess.
Heroic rag, two-healing, very much ouchy. For barely having the two tanks, the one melee, the me and one other dps in range for most of the fight, and with me having to stand in melee and risk getting knocked back and locked out of spells for 6 secs to be able to reach, so a large part of the time I can't hard cast, to still be almost identical to the holy paladin who has both tanks and all ranged is...well, i r gud haelr :] Our own group is at 6/7 all one-shots, and rag to 47% so we will probably get him in the next few weeks, and our alt run was 5/7 and my priest is TERRIBLE SIMPLY TERRIBLE...things are going well. Nerfs too soon and too much? Nah, I have my stressful run 3 days of the week, I'm happy to be able to show my group stuff casually. LFR will supposedly be even easier (yay) but only 25-man (boo). Oh, regarding the 25-man: goes well, few hiccups (bot trash and nef, mostly), ny and tre tanked it and I was happy for that, think they stressed out maybe a bit more than they needed to at times but tanking (especially Nef's adds! STACK THEM TIGHTER TIGHTER MORE TIGHTLY CMON WHY ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO STACKING) IS stressful. So is leading a 25-man, though. :p
How you know your crappy work coffee is working:
[ ] You feel more alert
[ ] You yawn less
[x] Three hours after you drink it you get sudden intense intestinal distress and stomach cramps
Will go grocery shopping, pick up mats ingredients for http://www.cookstr.com/recipes/oven-roasted-pork-butt-with-rosemary-garlic-and-black-pepper because it looks super delicious and also lol butt. Maybe take some small red potatoes, quarter them and roast them with olive oil and extra rosemary, because I am sure I will have some herbs left. Always do, when I get fresh herbs. Orzo with marinated artichoke hearts and parmesan. Oooh. Won't make it tonight, though. Right now I am feeling very not-foody. But will be good to have later in the week.
See, the problem with having a wrap and fries and drink for lunch (instead of Slim Fast, fiber bar or Lean Cuisine) is, usually I don't feel like eating for the rest of the day. At all. So I go to the store and sure, I'll spend $40 for the week when I've allocated $100 and half of that is for the cats anyway and I feel really super about saving so much money (and slightly nauseated by so much food around when I don't want to even think about food). Then it gets to Thursday and I've had a week of Slim Fast and fiber bars and Lean Cuisine and also soup (or nothing) for dinner and then I snap and become I AM VEL THE EATER OF WORLDS I MUST CONSUME. And open the cabinet and go ...oh right. :<
Mom called, said she just wanted to tell me she loves me. I said nothing. Such a depressing turn of events.
...and actually, yeah, depressed does describe it. Don't feel like I have my apartment together, or my debts, or my life. Think I'm doing okay with the budget and then wham, unexpected (potential) large expense. Make plans to take the rent check down days before it is due, forget, pay as soon as I remember and including the fee, and yes, it's only the second time I've been late in three years (and the first since I went on the lease on my own) and it was only late by a day but still, no excuse. Slipped my mind, that's all I can say. So many things are slipping my mind. Have the number for the old therapist, but even if I could afford her (and expense means I don't want to buy anything at all) she wasn't able to do fuck-all the first time around, so I couldn't justify trying it again. Mostly just want a hug. Won't fix my money issues or how I forget someone not minutes after telling myself to remember them, or how even though I literally only have 2 empty bowls and 3 spoons and a soup pot in the sink from the last week I can't find the energy to wash them, or vacuum with the sucky non-sucky vaccuum, or get all the empty packing boxes taken out that I've been meaning to for months, or put up the clean laundry that's still folded on my bedside table. Just hang it up! The hangers are right there, the closet is right there, just do it! >_< Mmm...no, don't wanna.
What is wrong with me :/
At the very least, though, I went into the wrap shop and the guy was like "the usual?" and I was like "yep" and it was exactly right and they always just trust me to tell the guy at the end extra cheese and I always do and...well, someone knows who I am. That's something, I guess.
Heroic rag, two-healing, very much ouchy. For barely having the two tanks, the one melee, the me and one other dps in range for most of the fight, and with me having to stand in melee and risk getting knocked back and locked out of spells for 6 secs to be able to reach, so a large part of the time I can't hard cast, to still be almost identical to the holy paladin who has both tanks and all ranged is...well, i r gud haelr :] Our own group is at 6/7 all one-shots, and rag to 47% so we will probably get him in the next few weeks, and our alt run was 5/7 and my priest is TERRIBLE SIMPLY TERRIBLE...things are going well. Nerfs too soon and too much? Nah, I have my stressful run 3 days of the week, I'm happy to be able to show my group stuff casually. LFR will supposedly be even easier (yay) but only 25-man (boo). Oh, regarding the 25-man: goes well, few hiccups (bot trash and nef, mostly), ny and tre tanked it and I was happy for that, think they stressed out maybe a bit more than they needed to at times but tanking (especially Nef's adds! STACK THEM TIGHTER TIGHTER MORE TIGHTLY CMON WHY ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO STACKING) IS stressful. So is leading a 25-man, though. :p