Fire Sign [1\1]
Fire Sign
Should have told me
Seemed like an ordinary day
Everything seemed to be okay
Did it hurt you?
These are the scars you never show.
She is a fire sign you know.
One day you're near and then you go
The sun is dipping low over the horizon, radiating its yellow, orange and red fire arms across the fields of golden corn. Soft wind brushes over the plants resulting in them shivering as the chill starts to take over the land. I remember when we used to sit here for hours darling, watching light turn to dark, listening to the hushed whispers of the countryside. You would always get cold and snuggle into my arms from where we lay in that field of corn. I would hold you close, and instead of looking at the scenic momentum around me I’d only look at you, studying your green eyes with just that slightest tint of hazel rimming the edges, and your red wavy hair messily tucked back into a bun which always fell out and tumbled down your back. You always looked your most beautiful then honey, so peaceful as well as content and I was the same because I had you in my arms. I always thought to myself how lucky I was to have you, to be married to such a wonderful women that held so much talent that you were rarely aware of. You didn’t know that did you darling? That I believed in you more then anybody else in the world? If I could just take your place now, please trust me that I would be gone and you would be where I am.
Here is a looking glass what do you see?
There is nothing there but me
There was a wishing well I jumped into
Nothing came true
I loved you so much and I still do, my heart aches for you every single minute of the day. Everywhere I go reminds me of us and I used to hate it, I really did because I couldn’t bear being there without you. But now…now I know you’re there with me, you’re present everywhere, in the wind, in the grass, in the sky, I can’t see it, but I can feel it and that’s all that matters…that you’re always there with me.
Our angel is sleeping at the moment; I tucked her up in bed only a few hours ago, and she’s just simply beautiful. She has red hair just like you my love, your exact smile and wonderful laugh. When I look at her I see you. I just wish you could have seen her too…wish you could have had the chance to see your gorgeous baby grow up into a stunning little girl. But you never got to see her, and it’s so unfair that your life has gone and I still stand here when you deserve to breathe far more then I do.
They deceive you
There was a wall you had to find
The echoes in your mind
You’ll surrender
These are the lessons that you learn
No body hears, no one's concerned
One day its clear and then you burn
I know your time was hard honey, oh god I know it, what with your dad kicking you out when you were only 8 and refusing to pay for your upbringing when forced to live with your mum. So much was lost in those years when you had to work disastrous hours just for a bit of pay to live on when your mother was killed in a car crash. I know that my love, but I didn’t know just how awful it felt until you passed away after giving birth to your child. Our child. The child I named after you, Helen.
Here is the wishing well I jumped into
Nothing came true
Here is a looking glass what do you see
Sorry it's just me
And I miss you…miss you so much it hurts to breathe, but then I just have to look at my child giving me that smile of yours and I melt. She has me woven under a spell; one of unconditional love that I know you would also have if you could just have had the chance to get to know her. We have many photographs my love, and they are so perfect except for that big, empty space where you should be. It’s so unfair that you went so unexpectedly before I had the chance to tell you how much I really cared. To assure you that you were my soul mate and always will be. That day was supposed to be one of a miracle, where a new life blossomed out into the open world and I was ready for that, I really was, I just hadn’t prepared for a loss…the loss of you. I still long for you…for your touch, but I must learn to live without you because you are never coming back are you?
Even just a sound and all your cards are down
Even just a sound
Let me lie you down, don't have to make a sound
I would lie you down
One day you're near and then you go…
I still wish for you to be here with me darling, to have you in my arms right now, and when I close my eyes you’re there. I can smell you…feel you…hold you, and it’s just perfect until I open my eyes to the world and realise you really are gone and my plea hasn’t come true. I just want to have you back with me is it too much to ask?
Just a slight sound or noise makes me spin around wildly and search for you. I stand in the now dark field, expecting to see you running through the corn towards me, hair blowing in the wind and laughter ringing through the air like the sweetest harmony ever known. But you’re never there no matter how much I search for you. You’ve gone and I must accept that. I just have to let you know…know that even though you have been taken away from me there is one thing that can never be erased. That’s my love for you darling. We can use it as a way to repair the shattered glass of memories can’t we?
Here is the wishing well I jumped into
Nothing came true.