this life repeats itself
so here are some quotes/phrases i feel describe my life (and yes, there is lots of contradiction):
"Well let me tell you I have seen a monster age of seventeen
Who'll let you in to kick you out and knows what love is "all about"
Hey now girl I see you walking by
And long ago you used to stop and talk now you just wink your eye
and I'm surprised you look all grown up
A champagne glass next to a paper cup
I stopped you just to say it
Hey now girl
Her tongue is black haven't you heard her mutter those three dirty words
For all those foolish boys to hear like a siren bringing ships so near
Hey now girl I see you walking by
And I remember how you used to smile or how hard you used to try
It's in your eyes and I'm in a trance
A winter chill next to a spring romance
I stopped you just to say it
Hey now girl"
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"I want a lover I don't have to love.
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.
But you, but you... "
++++++++++++++++++++
"Your slim frame
Your eager eyes and your wild mane
Oh they keep me where I belong
All wrapped up in wrong
You’re to blame
For wasted words of sad refrain
Oh let them take me where they may
Believe me when I say
I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance
And I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast
And I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance
oh fall for me
Your slim frame
Your simple stare and your wrong, wrong name
Oh they keep me where I belong
All strung out in song
Why so tame
We could shoot wilder vines
Through younger veins
Sip slow from night’s deep wells
And watch our gardens swell
Once the seeds are sown
Wild and overgrown, you’ll see
Heart's colors changed like leaves"
++++++++++++++++++++
"Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing"
++++++++++++++++++++
"I thought I was smart
I thought I was right
I thought it better not to fight
I thought there was a virtue
in always being cool.
So when it came time to fight,
I thought 'I'll just step aside',
and that the time would prove you wrong
and that you were the fool.
I don't know where the sunbeams end
or the starlight begins, it's all a mystery.
Oh, to fight is to defend
If it's not now then tell me when
would be the time that you would
stand up and be a man.
For, to lose, I could accept,
but to surrender I just wept
and regretted this moment.
Oh, and that I was the fool.
I don't know where the sunbeams end
or the starlight begins, it's all a mystery.
And I don't know how a man decides
what's right for his own life, it's all a mystery. "
++++++++++++++++++++
damn. today feels like a terrible day all of a sudden. once again, stuck in a point in my life where i don't know what to do.
"Well let me tell you I have seen a monster age of seventeen
Who'll let you in to kick you out and knows what love is "all about"
Hey now girl I see you walking by
And long ago you used to stop and talk now you just wink your eye
and I'm surprised you look all grown up
A champagne glass next to a paper cup
I stopped you just to say it
Hey now girl
Her tongue is black haven't you heard her mutter those three dirty words
For all those foolish boys to hear like a siren bringing ships so near
Hey now girl I see you walking by
And I remember how you used to smile or how hard you used to try
It's in your eyes and I'm in a trance
A winter chill next to a spring romance
I stopped you just to say it
Hey now girl"
++++++++++++++++++++
"I want a lover I don't have to love.
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.
But you, but you... "
++++++++++++++++++++
"Your slim frame
Your eager eyes and your wild mane
Oh they keep me where I belong
All wrapped up in wrong
You’re to blame
For wasted words of sad refrain
Oh let them take me where they may
Believe me when I say
I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance
And I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast
And I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance
oh fall for me
Your slim frame
Your simple stare and your wrong, wrong name
Oh they keep me where I belong
All strung out in song
Why so tame
We could shoot wilder vines
Through younger veins
Sip slow from night’s deep wells
And watch our gardens swell
Once the seeds are sown
Wild and overgrown, you’ll see
Heart's colors changed like leaves"
++++++++++++++++++++
"Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing"
++++++++++++++++++++
"I thought I was smart
I thought I was right
I thought it better not to fight
I thought there was a virtue
in always being cool.
So when it came time to fight,
I thought 'I'll just step aside',
and that the time would prove you wrong
and that you were the fool.
I don't know where the sunbeams end
or the starlight begins, it's all a mystery.
Oh, to fight is to defend
If it's not now then tell me when
would be the time that you would
stand up and be a man.
For, to lose, I could accept,
but to surrender I just wept
and regretted this moment.
Oh, and that I was the fool.
I don't know where the sunbeams end
or the starlight begins, it's all a mystery.
And I don't know how a man decides
what's right for his own life, it's all a mystery. "
++++++++++++++++++++
damn. today feels like a terrible day all of a sudden. once again, stuck in a point in my life where i don't know what to do.