Blah, change and isolation
I have been feeling very blah of late. Factors that may be affecting this are that I no longer am employed, that life has taken a few unexpected twists, and that I am changing.
I think that the changing is the biggest factor here. I am finding myself questioning many things - who am I, where do I want to go, how do I plan to get there, do I like who I am, do I like who I am currently identifying as my friends, do I like ... many things.
Another factor to this is do those around me support the me I am becoming, and will they understand the space it will take for me to discover who I am?
Because I am questioning myself, I am questioning many things. I am trying to understand things that I have taken for granted. Life is no longer simple.
I find it easy to become overwhelmed. As such, I think I retreat and end up going blah. I find it easier to avoid large groups of people. There are several things coming up with lots of people and I really can't be arsed going to any of them. Yet I also feel a social obligation to attend.
I am just not sure about much at the moment.
Which makes it kind of hard to promote myself to companies for employment. I will have to get a step on with that too as we need someone in our family making an income. I'm pretty pissed off with that and I can't really talk about it.
I think that the changing is the biggest factor here. I am finding myself questioning many things - who am I, where do I want to go, how do I plan to get there, do I like who I am, do I like who I am currently identifying as my friends, do I like ... many things.
Another factor to this is do those around me support the me I am becoming, and will they understand the space it will take for me to discover who I am?
Because I am questioning myself, I am questioning many things. I am trying to understand things that I have taken for granted. Life is no longer simple.
I find it easy to become overwhelmed. As such, I think I retreat and end up going blah. I find it easier to avoid large groups of people. There are several things coming up with lots of people and I really can't be arsed going to any of them. Yet I also feel a social obligation to attend.
I am just not sure about much at the moment.
Which makes it kind of hard to promote myself to companies for employment. I will have to get a step on with that too as we need someone in our family making an income. I'm pretty pissed off with that and I can't really talk about it.