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I am really struggling to stay engaged at work at the moment. Hence this little post on Lj.
Factors that are compounding are these:
1) I plan to leave jump ship, soon
1.1) Thus I don't want to get too entangled with peoples lives here
1.2) I am also disillusioned with the captaincy of this ship, again
2) Just passed a rough full moon
2.1) Also there is a solar flare hitting the earth about nowish
2.2) Both often coincides with me struggling
3) My digestive system is giving me hassles
3.1) Which often happens at full moons and seems to have no relationship to what I eat
3.2) So I feel depleted and lacking in energy
4) I'm finding I finally wake up just before I should go to bed
4.1) Makes it hard to sleep well, which means I wake up tired.
By the same token, I'm finding it hard to engage outside of work. I skipped going to:
A) Roleplaying
B) 2 birthday parties
C) The pub after training
I think I need some me time. Again. Sigh.
One of the people I am working with today told me I had to put me first. This person is not supposed to notice that.
Factors that are compounding are these:
1) I plan to leave jump ship, soon
1.1) Thus I don't want to get too entangled with peoples lives here
1.2) I am also disillusioned with the captaincy of this ship, again
2) Just passed a rough full moon
2.1) Also there is a solar flare hitting the earth about nowish
2.2) Both often coincides with me struggling
3) My digestive system is giving me hassles
3.1) Which often happens at full moons and seems to have no relationship to what I eat
3.2) So I feel depleted and lacking in energy
4) I'm finding I finally wake up just before I should go to bed
4.1) Makes it hard to sleep well, which means I wake up tired.
By the same token, I'm finding it hard to engage outside of work. I skipped going to:
A) Roleplaying
B) 2 birthday parties
C) The pub after training
I think I need some me time. Again. Sigh.
One of the people I am working with today told me I had to put me first. This person is not supposed to notice that.