On one topic I shan't write. This is not the forum.
The other memory involves a time where I considered myself to be an android, a replica of who I was. I think I believed this for about a year and a half. I also had this deep suspicion that I had some strange disease or life threatening condition, like a biological time bomb, and no one was telling me.
This fear of the self, denial of body, is speaks to me of feeling alien in my setting. There had to be a reason why I didn't fit in, and these seemed to support it. My brother had a hand in the android thing, but I don't think he knew it would last so long.
I haven't thought about it for so very long, and yet it popped up yesterday and prompted me to think about it, which prompts me to wonder why I remembered it, why I forgot it and what it might mean.
The other memories are a bit more devastating in their implications, connotations and stuff.
I was amused to note that I subconsciously used psycho analytic narrative techniques to work my way through unresolved issues, often in the morning while in the bathroom. Mirrors are handy for that.
You know my number if you wanna chat. You know it can go both ways. Just sms me to let me know you need a chat and we can go from there. If the boy is asleep then I'm yours. :)
On one topic I shan't write. This is not the forum.
The other memory involves a time where I considered myself to be an android, a replica of who I was. I think I believed this for about a year and a half. I also had this deep suspicion that I had some strange disease or life threatening condition, like a biological time bomb, and no one was telling me.
This fear of the self, denial of body, is speaks to me of feeling alien in my setting. There had to be a reason why I didn't fit in, and these seemed to support it. My brother had a hand in the android thing, but I don't think he knew it would last so long.
I haven't thought about it for so very long, and yet it popped up yesterday and prompted me to think about it, which prompts me to wonder why I remembered it, why I forgot it and what it might mean.
The other memories are a bit more devastating in their implications, connotations and stuff.
I was amused to note that I subconsciously used psycho analytic narrative techniques to work my way through unresolved issues, often in the morning while in the bathroom. Mirrors are handy for that.
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You know my number if you wanna chat. You know it can go both ways. Just sms me to let me know you need a chat and we can go from there. If the boy is asleep then I'm yours. :)
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