It should be raining.

[vego]

I've been a bit emotional lately. I can think as to why...it's all biological. But regardless, it's very tiring to be moody and sad and hurt all the time. Not all the time...just the past couple of days. Stress is taking a toll on me as well as this natural phenomena that curses woman once a month. I feel sad a lot during these times, but now more than ever because of my stress level and my hormone tampering to keep me from getting pregnant. Every so often it hits like a cannon ball, and I feel utterly drained of life, motivation and happiness. The phrase "what's the point?" seems to come up a lot. And the urge to just sleep all the time.

I have to go to work in about an hour...and I have no drive to care. There's a lot of negative feelings towards gamestop right now, they've cut my hours so bad that I'm struggling to keep food on the table. I will have no lunch today, no dinner. I have no money and no food to eat, and not enough gas to go any where that has either. Alex is in the same boat. We sit in starving poverty. I get paid tomorrow...but bills wait to snatch that possible food from our mouths. It will get better, I know this. But the looming late credit card bills are waiting in the shadows, as is the rent and hungry bellies.

Again, I'm sad today so my post is shades of blue and gloom. Hard to shake those colors. Orange is no where to be found today. Not today. Maybe tomorrow.

Reading might boosts my spirits, so I'm going to try that. Maybe I still have some chocolate hidden somewhere.