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i had this dream last night that i got really fat, it was weird, and i actually beleived that i had become obese, when i clearly am not obese.
jean called me last night which was a beautiful surprise. that crazy girl has become nocturnal because of her silly bar job. but soon she'll be in montreal and i will visit her.
i now live alone. sarah has gone to salt spring island for a month to do yoga and jenn has taken a last minute camp job up on the north shore (near whistler sorta) so for august its just me :(
Then in September we're gonna all try to live here...? should be fun but kinda difficult cuz all 3 of us will be super busy with school and work.
so makeshift was here a few weeks ago which was crazy fun.
i have had no urge to consume alcohol since january, when i was in toronto and i have not been drunk since then...then once the boys got here i all of a sudden wanted to drink...so i did. and i smoked weed everyday for a week which was a bad idea. but sarah and the boys had left (bc she was gonna go to golden, BC with them for another show) and i was having fun with melisia, a friend from work who is clearly a stoner, well they all are, i love them though.
so yeah, bad news for me smoking everyday, messed up my brain, sleeping patterns, breathing, thoughts, emotions.
actually the alcohol when the boys were here messed with my emotions most. i had a huge breakdown cry the day that they left.
so then sarah decided to stay in the van and go to toronto.
so she was gone for 2 weeks in total. she got home and i was alone cuz jenns mom was visiting from toronto and they were in banff. when sarah got home she said "you're so old" which was weird. sometimes i forget that im only 18. she told my mom that she felt as though i'd aged 1 year in the 2 weeks that she was gone.
Couple boys since i last updated.
Chris whos 26 and wants to make more money and get a better job...hasnt called me in a few weeks and i have not called him, i think hes in a different place in life than i am
then philipp, my austrian lovah. he came into my work on saturday, i was covering the vapour bar, which meant that i was actually able to interact with people. so we hung out after work in the park and then the next night after work he came over and we got really really stoned, i do not think i have ever been that high in my life...i was super paranoid and tripping out. anyway he spent the night and then monday we went to the beach at stanley park and then he went home to austria.
oh and dave when we were in victoria, but thats the same old tune.
i'm still feeling messed up from the weed on sunday and its wednesday, this is why i must not do drugs.
what else...
i think that i'll for sure go back east next summer, i'm starting to miss y'alls.
aly will be here in a week and will be staying for a week i am very excited. we're gonna go to salt spring for the weekend to visit sarah which will be nice.
I start school in a month, i dont know how i feel about university anymore...a year on really does make you not wanna go back to school, even though i'm a big nerd and love school. i'll try it out. but what i really want to do is something hands on, like maybe WWOOFing or go down to arizona to the tree of life rejuvination centre where you live and work and learn all about organic farming and raw food. or do a yoga teacher training and get that underway...or become certified in reiki or something...i just feel like university is super expensive and time consuming. i could just become a yoga teacher and have that be my chosen profession...which it just may be. what am i going to do with a B. Sc (GRS) ??? what do the letters mean besides thousands of dollars to an institution? i might change my mind when i get there, who knows.
okay signing off now.
take care everyone
heath
jean called me last night which was a beautiful surprise. that crazy girl has become nocturnal because of her silly bar job. but soon she'll be in montreal and i will visit her.
i now live alone. sarah has gone to salt spring island for a month to do yoga and jenn has taken a last minute camp job up on the north shore (near whistler sorta) so for august its just me :(
Then in September we're gonna all try to live here...? should be fun but kinda difficult cuz all 3 of us will be super busy with school and work.
so makeshift was here a few weeks ago which was crazy fun.
i have had no urge to consume alcohol since january, when i was in toronto and i have not been drunk since then...then once the boys got here i all of a sudden wanted to drink...so i did. and i smoked weed everyday for a week which was a bad idea. but sarah and the boys had left (bc she was gonna go to golden, BC with them for another show) and i was having fun with melisia, a friend from work who is clearly a stoner, well they all are, i love them though.
so yeah, bad news for me smoking everyday, messed up my brain, sleeping patterns, breathing, thoughts, emotions.
actually the alcohol when the boys were here messed with my emotions most. i had a huge breakdown cry the day that they left.
so then sarah decided to stay in the van and go to toronto.
so she was gone for 2 weeks in total. she got home and i was alone cuz jenns mom was visiting from toronto and they were in banff. when sarah got home she said "you're so old" which was weird. sometimes i forget that im only 18. she told my mom that she felt as though i'd aged 1 year in the 2 weeks that she was gone.
Couple boys since i last updated.
Chris whos 26 and wants to make more money and get a better job...hasnt called me in a few weeks and i have not called him, i think hes in a different place in life than i am
then philipp, my austrian lovah. he came into my work on saturday, i was covering the vapour bar, which meant that i was actually able to interact with people. so we hung out after work in the park and then the next night after work he came over and we got really really stoned, i do not think i have ever been that high in my life...i was super paranoid and tripping out. anyway he spent the night and then monday we went to the beach at stanley park and then he went home to austria.
oh and dave when we were in victoria, but thats the same old tune.
i'm still feeling messed up from the weed on sunday and its wednesday, this is why i must not do drugs.
what else...
i think that i'll for sure go back east next summer, i'm starting to miss y'alls.
aly will be here in a week and will be staying for a week i am very excited. we're gonna go to salt spring for the weekend to visit sarah which will be nice.
I start school in a month, i dont know how i feel about university anymore...a year on really does make you not wanna go back to school, even though i'm a big nerd and love school. i'll try it out. but what i really want to do is something hands on, like maybe WWOOFing or go down to arizona to the tree of life rejuvination centre where you live and work and learn all about organic farming and raw food. or do a yoga teacher training and get that underway...or become certified in reiki or something...i just feel like university is super expensive and time consuming. i could just become a yoga teacher and have that be my chosen profession...which it just may be. what am i going to do with a B. Sc (GRS) ??? what do the letters mean besides thousands of dollars to an institution? i might change my mind when i get there, who knows.
okay signing off now.
take care everyone
heath