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Ok so currently its 11:42 pm Central time. I'm at Raynor Libary again.... Though it seems like i'm always here these days lol got to love Finals week! i just keep thinking to myself in one week i will see Mitch. Thats whats keeping me going right now... That and my always plentiful supply of Adderall... ive only taken 20mg since 10 am so i'm doing fine... However i poped my last pill at about 7 pm... so that means another dose is comming around midnight.... Its the only way i can stay up... and more importantly focus on my ADPR 142 Public Relations Research exam tomarrow at 1pm... yah thats right i'm pulling an all nighter for a 1pm final.... I'm basically just scared to sleep right now... afraid i'll forget the information once my frantic memorization begins... Once i do that... its all down hill...
I'm scared about ODing on my meds again... ive only done it once... last year durring First semester midterms.... 60 mg..in 4 hours... Time release... So basically.... Yah i couldnt sleep for 47 hours... i mean i wanted to but i was so scared too... That and i just couldnt fall asleep.... Not one of my best moments... Ever.... I'm worried about these finals.. i mean yah i have one monday, one wednesday and one friday... but the are all tough... i mean not biomedical enginering tough... but hard for me... alot of memorization.. and even more Essay writeing... I mean In the past i have always been able to pull it off... for some reason i'm scared i wont do it... like i wont make it... I just guess that its beginning to sink in.... I dont know... I'm stressed MAJORLY stressed... i mean i should be able to memorize 8 chapters of information by 1pm.... ive done more... i guess i'm annoyed because i've been working since 10 am and i still have 4 remaining chapters to write out..Not the most fun.. that and i'm waiting for Mitch to call... if he does call... and then tomarrow... i piece together my Final Portfolio for ADPR 181....Which i have everything for BUT my PSA... i have to get it from Carolyn... it has to be on there... DAMIT.. i also have to edit the work.. but luckily today i got all the partner work e-mailed to me from Morgen and Carolyn... AHHHHHHHh I hate finals week!
I had a really great talk with Mitch last night... i mean AMAZING... i told him i was proud that he was going to Iraq...and that i was proud because he was fighting for me.. and the Entire US... He told me that i couldnt even begin to imagine how much that means to him.... meaning i touched him!! He also promiced that nothing in our friendship would change... Which is something i needed to hear... and that i could never be replaced..... Ok strange feeling of daj a vu.... I hate that feeling! I wish it was next week alredy... Then i would be with Mitch, and Bern, and everyone else down there i love... Blah...
Ok i have to go back and continue to study.. my plan is to finish the outlines by 1 or 2... maybe 3.. and then memorize... after that hopefully hit up the gym around 8 or 9... and then come home.. and review untill the exam at 1... So I hope that plan works out... it most likley wont... My study plans never work out... the funniest thing for me right now is the fact that i have over 12 hours untill this exam... And yet i'm freaking... i think its because ive been working on this for over 12 hours as it is... God i better pass this test... or else an entire day is COMPLETLY WASTED... Ok i'm out!!!
I'm scared about ODing on my meds again... ive only done it once... last year durring First semester midterms.... 60 mg..in 4 hours... Time release... So basically.... Yah i couldnt sleep for 47 hours... i mean i wanted to but i was so scared too... That and i just couldnt fall asleep.... Not one of my best moments... Ever.... I'm worried about these finals.. i mean yah i have one monday, one wednesday and one friday... but the are all tough... i mean not biomedical enginering tough... but hard for me... alot of memorization.. and even more Essay writeing... I mean In the past i have always been able to pull it off... for some reason i'm scared i wont do it... like i wont make it... I just guess that its beginning to sink in.... I dont know... I'm stressed MAJORLY stressed... i mean i should be able to memorize 8 chapters of information by 1pm.... ive done more... i guess i'm annoyed because i've been working since 10 am and i still have 4 remaining chapters to write out..Not the most fun.. that and i'm waiting for Mitch to call... if he does call... and then tomarrow... i piece together my Final Portfolio for ADPR 181....Which i have everything for BUT my PSA... i have to get it from Carolyn... it has to be on there... DAMIT.. i also have to edit the work.. but luckily today i got all the partner work e-mailed to me from Morgen and Carolyn... AHHHHHHHh I hate finals week!
I had a really great talk with Mitch last night... i mean AMAZING... i told him i was proud that he was going to Iraq...and that i was proud because he was fighting for me.. and the Entire US... He told me that i couldnt even begin to imagine how much that means to him.... meaning i touched him!! He also promiced that nothing in our friendship would change... Which is something i needed to hear... and that i could never be replaced..... Ok strange feeling of daj a vu.... I hate that feeling! I wish it was next week alredy... Then i would be with Mitch, and Bern, and everyone else down there i love... Blah...
Ok i have to go back and continue to study.. my plan is to finish the outlines by 1 or 2... maybe 3.. and then memorize... after that hopefully hit up the gym around 8 or 9... and then come home.. and review untill the exam at 1... So I hope that plan works out... it most likley wont... My study plans never work out... the funniest thing for me right now is the fact that i have over 12 hours untill this exam... And yet i'm freaking... i think its because ive been working on this for over 12 hours as it is... God i better pass this test... or else an entire day is COMPLETLY WASTED... Ok i'm out!!!