IF WE ONLY KNEW THE TRUTH ABOUT IT
... MAYBE WE COULD WORK OUR WAY AROUND IT.
Nonpoint - The Truth... describes like my life :\. Ack. Feeling mellow, relaxed, and with a good understanding of my life at the moment. I slept 12 hours and have no actual fatigue. I don't think anybody wants to fuck with me today because I always tell people flat up how it is, but right now what I say will actually make sense to fuck their day up.
Lol... this is kinda weird and nastay, but I figured out how to tame like all my acne. And it was so simple, I'm just a tard. I'm so pimple free for like the past 4 days and will be forever :P. IF WE ONLY KNEW THE TRUTH ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTTTTT MORE THEN JUST A LIE OR TWO ABOUT WHAT REALLY GOES ON AND WHAT YOU SAIDDDDD. MORE THEN JUST THE RIGHT THING TO DO AT THE TIME...
Been doing lots of thinking. Not about actual economic issues such as my life. But socially speaking, more of a "whats real whats not" jist. I realized that deep down I actually have moderately or actually a lot more then mediocre (i dont know any correct wording for it) niceness towards people. I think I try to help everyone else more then I help myself. And I think that explains why I don't get influenced by anyone, which is actually a bad thing. Like... I try to help people way too much, people who don't have what I have. (like i said this isnt economic) Like... with my experiences and help them with their problems. And that I try to help people in the long run. No matter if I have to spare a few things about myself or others to get them there. It's kind of sad. I need to be more selfish. Need to do more things for myself. I'm just like... so tired and exhausted about all of it. I don't mind helping people, but it's getting sickenning not doing anything for myself. Well sometimes I do, but that's people who are more fucked up then I am that I abuse because they could help people more then I could and they don't.
I'm too patient and too lenient. I don't really have a temper. I feel like a fucking monk. Sure I freak out on my family because they go out of their way to not be any of those. As a matter of fact I wouldn't mind punching every single member of my family dead in the nose. My mom, my dad, my grandma, my great grandma, my grandpa, my uncle, my sister, my nueffe, my niece, my brother, everybody. Just to wake their asses up. Everyone thinks I'm just crying out for help and dying to get attention, literally. But I'm really not. But yeah, who the hell doesn't want to punch everyone in the face? :) Agree with me so I feel better :P.
I formed this shit-faced philosophy like everyone else when I was like 14 that if I maintain my cool, never freak out, always explain things, always help, never do anything too severe to anyone, and to just in reality just be so calm. And all of us may have went about it in different ways, but I think that everyone just at that age decided they are going to strive to gradually be the opposite of what they have heard about what they are and what they think they are. Well I guess about 9 or so months ago I reached that level of supremity. Supremity meaning that you've reached what you have strived to be. Not actual supremity, because everyone I think reaches that level and in turn tells themselves in the end "fuck that." But I'm fine with what I do and what I am, and don't care if anybody else isn't.
But I always have a positive thought in my head. I love memories, I practically survive on them. But still no matter what I say, cynical bitter or threatening, I'm still always thinking of the good things about it. My speech and actions of negativity are to cover up my kindness. Because I can't stand people who are always kind to me, although I just want to be kind to them back. My prejudice, my violent threats, my racism, my sexism, my every philosophy that functions on hate and biase is actually in fact just to see most people's reactions and how they really are deep down. Although I try to believe myself so I can explain everything in the world and every action amongst every person every sex every eye color every hair color every skin color, it's just so I don't have to really hate someone who acts wrong towards me. But I must admit, no matter how much I love to always be happy, I also love to observe things I could put a biase on top of. Just to explain everything. Ahh but fuck it, I don't want to put a biase on everything anymore. Of course I'm going to remain myself and say the same things and act the same way. But just know this is what I think about. Happiness is a high for me. And I'm just rambling trying to think if anyone else is like this.
-Later, David
Nonpoint - The Truth... describes like my life :\. Ack. Feeling mellow, relaxed, and with a good understanding of my life at the moment. I slept 12 hours and have no actual fatigue. I don't think anybody wants to fuck with me today because I always tell people flat up how it is, but right now what I say will actually make sense to fuck their day up.
Lol... this is kinda weird and nastay, but I figured out how to tame like all my acne. And it was so simple, I'm just a tard. I'm so pimple free for like the past 4 days and will be forever :P. IF WE ONLY KNEW THE TRUTH ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTTTTT MORE THEN JUST A LIE OR TWO ABOUT WHAT REALLY GOES ON AND WHAT YOU SAIDDDDD. MORE THEN JUST THE RIGHT THING TO DO AT THE TIME...
Been doing lots of thinking. Not about actual economic issues such as my life. But socially speaking, more of a "whats real whats not" jist. I realized that deep down I actually have moderately or actually a lot more then mediocre (i dont know any correct wording for it) niceness towards people. I think I try to help everyone else more then I help myself. And I think that explains why I don't get influenced by anyone, which is actually a bad thing. Like... I try to help people way too much, people who don't have what I have. (like i said this isnt economic) Like... with my experiences and help them with their problems. And that I try to help people in the long run. No matter if I have to spare a few things about myself or others to get them there. It's kind of sad. I need to be more selfish. Need to do more things for myself. I'm just like... so tired and exhausted about all of it. I don't mind helping people, but it's getting sickenning not doing anything for myself. Well sometimes I do, but that's people who are more fucked up then I am that I abuse because they could help people more then I could and they don't.
I'm too patient and too lenient. I don't really have a temper. I feel like a fucking monk. Sure I freak out on my family because they go out of their way to not be any of those. As a matter of fact I wouldn't mind punching every single member of my family dead in the nose. My mom, my dad, my grandma, my great grandma, my grandpa, my uncle, my sister, my nueffe, my niece, my brother, everybody. Just to wake their asses up. Everyone thinks I'm just crying out for help and dying to get attention, literally. But I'm really not. But yeah, who the hell doesn't want to punch everyone in the face? :) Agree with me so I feel better :P.
I formed this shit-faced philosophy like everyone else when I was like 14 that if I maintain my cool, never freak out, always explain things, always help, never do anything too severe to anyone, and to just in reality just be so calm. And all of us may have went about it in different ways, but I think that everyone just at that age decided they are going to strive to gradually be the opposite of what they have heard about what they are and what they think they are. Well I guess about 9 or so months ago I reached that level of supremity. Supremity meaning that you've reached what you have strived to be. Not actual supremity, because everyone I think reaches that level and in turn tells themselves in the end "fuck that." But I'm fine with what I do and what I am, and don't care if anybody else isn't.
But I always have a positive thought in my head. I love memories, I practically survive on them. But still no matter what I say, cynical bitter or threatening, I'm still always thinking of the good things about it. My speech and actions of negativity are to cover up my kindness. Because I can't stand people who are always kind to me, although I just want to be kind to them back. My prejudice, my violent threats, my racism, my sexism, my every philosophy that functions on hate and biase is actually in fact just to see most people's reactions and how they really are deep down. Although I try to believe myself so I can explain everything in the world and every action amongst every person every sex every eye color every hair color every skin color, it's just so I don't have to really hate someone who acts wrong towards me. But I must admit, no matter how much I love to always be happy, I also love to observe things I could put a biase on top of. Just to explain everything. Ahh but fuck it, I don't want to put a biase on everything anymore. Of course I'm going to remain myself and say the same things and act the same way. But just know this is what I think about. Happiness is a high for me. And I'm just rambling trying to think if anyone else is like this.
-Later, David