::nail-biting::

Jul 14, 2011 08:50


Many of my loves are coming back this summer.  Haven is returning this Friday, the new series of L&O:UK started last week, Series 2 for Luther (BBC) has already come and gone (but only four episodes, which, urgh), and of course, Breaking Bad will be back this Sunday.

I'm glad Haven is back, since it's such a light, enjoyable breeze of a show (and aww, I want Nathan and Audrey and Duke and the beautiful coastal town on my screen again), and I'm always ecstatic to have Ronnie & Matt (L&O:UK) back on TV, as watching them together simply makes me happy without any reservation whatsoever.  However, I'm not prepared for the emotional journey that Breaking Bad will no doubt put me through.  I'm honestly not.

For the last couple of years, it's legitimately been my favourite TV show in the WHOLE WORLD, but watching it stresses me out like nothing else.  I think Generation Kill may come closest, but BB is just in another dimension altogether.  I don't feel articulate enough right now to explain how and why of it, but unlike other shows that I love and obsess over, Breaking Bad just wrecks me emotionally, mentally and intellectually, and there's no or little fluffy value -- not to say it isn't fun or funny, as it is probably one of the greatest black comedies out there, but it doesn't, for instance, have that fandom 'shipping value of the Brad/Nate factor, that GK has had for me -- and I'm hesitant to label as entertainment.  I literally have to brace myself before re-watching any episode.
I want it back in my life so badly, and yet I know I'm not ready for it. I feel like I'm in some sort of abusive relationship with this show.  I love it to pieces, and in turn, it shatters me.  

fandom: haven, fandom: breaking bad, fandom: law & order uk, fandom: fringe

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