frustrated
i'm at home with my parents for the summer, and it's only been 2 days and i'm already depressed.
i've already gotten in an argument about what i believe in (ethically, spiritually, etc) with my father, and he always makes me feel like a complete idiot, even tho i know that what i'm doing is good. he thinks i'm crazy cos i want to work for an organization that canvasses to raise awareness for environmental/various activism causes instead of getting a "normal" job.
anyways, i've been eating raisin bran crunch, which i thought was safe cos the brand i get at school is, but i realised it has honey in it. bah. Then my little brother got hungry, and i wanted to feed him something healthy, so i said i'd make bean burritos, but i open up the can, and it looked different than i'm used to, and yep, the beans have LARD in them. i almost cried. I called my mom (who is an omni) and she said that they're still in there cos she realised they had lard and didn't want to eat them.
i feel bad about opening them tho, and now no one will eat them. i guess my little brother would, but i'd feel bad feeding him something my mother wouldn't even eat. i feel like i should force myself to eat them but the thought of eating lard makes me sick.
i want to be at my house with my kitchen where all my food is good and safe, and to go ride my bike in the sunshine and feel better, but is so nasty and cold outside which doesn't help at all.
it's not all so bad tho- my little brother has been asking me a lot of questions about vegetarianism and wants to bake vegan cookies for his teacher cos she vegetarian and it's teacher appreciation week at his school, so that made me pretty happy :)
i've already gotten in an argument about what i believe in (ethically, spiritually, etc) with my father, and he always makes me feel like a complete idiot, even tho i know that what i'm doing is good. he thinks i'm crazy cos i want to work for an organization that canvasses to raise awareness for environmental/various activism causes instead of getting a "normal" job.
anyways, i've been eating raisin bran crunch, which i thought was safe cos the brand i get at school is, but i realised it has honey in it. bah. Then my little brother got hungry, and i wanted to feed him something healthy, so i said i'd make bean burritos, but i open up the can, and it looked different than i'm used to, and yep, the beans have LARD in them. i almost cried. I called my mom (who is an omni) and she said that they're still in there cos she realised they had lard and didn't want to eat them.
i feel bad about opening them tho, and now no one will eat them. i guess my little brother would, but i'd feel bad feeding him something my mother wouldn't even eat. i feel like i should force myself to eat them but the thought of eating lard makes me sick.
i want to be at my house with my kitchen where all my food is good and safe, and to go ride my bike in the sunshine and feel better, but is so nasty and cold outside which doesn't help at all.
it's not all so bad tho- my little brother has been asking me a lot of questions about vegetarianism and wants to bake vegan cookies for his teacher cos she vegetarian and it's teacher appreciation week at his school, so that made me pretty happy :)