Manorexic
So I think my boyfriend is anorexic... get that. He sometimes doesn't eat at all, because he's not hungry or forgets! (he gets on me for this all the time)
He used to be fat, as a child, and suddenly in his teens he lost the weight and became very skinny. He was just normal skinny when we started dating but now he is so thin (makes me jealous even) I mean THIN not just skinny.
He looks skeletal. seriously. He's gorgeous. I love it, you can see his ribbs, you can see his shoulder blades pop, his spine, everything is perfect. So thin, and toned too. I get so jealous. I love how he looks... and I've noticed the last month, he is encouraging me with my diet and never eats. he admits it.
I wonder if he's trying to tell me something. I wonder... can we go through this together? I havn't seen him this skinny since we were both on hard drugs! I wish I knew. I love him so much, either way I love him. he is my thinspiration, I feel obsessed with his skeletal body. I guess it's a good thing to be obsessed with your boyfriends body! lol.
Still only the crystal light. 5 calories. I hate those five calories. Almost a perfect day.
I tried to work out, but I don't have any energy... maybe in a while. gotta get 30 minutes!
I drew some pictures, for some reason, I get really crative when I am fasting, I'm gonna put them on the website once I figure out how to use my scanner.
Stay Strong!
-KG-
I'm editing this entry because I don't want to post too many, but oh god, I drank 4oz of naked super food... 70 calories! I feel like I'm such a weak failure! I thought I was gonna pass out. So I had some. I feel better physically but mentally I feel worse. like a failure. Good thing I'm fasting till the 2nd. Tomorrow is halloween and I am spending the day hiding from candy, the scarriest part of halloween! No candy binges for KG, just fasting... oh and sleeping, I'm gonna try and sleep tomorrow. I need it. Day three is always the tough one for me, but I can do it. I WILL do it. I can't wait. I can't wait until tomorrow is a success, fasting through halloween means will power. I will be so proud of myself after tomorrow! The rest of the world is gorging themselves with candy, but I am not.
He used to be fat, as a child, and suddenly in his teens he lost the weight and became very skinny. He was just normal skinny when we started dating but now he is so thin (makes me jealous even) I mean THIN not just skinny.
He looks skeletal. seriously. He's gorgeous. I love it, you can see his ribbs, you can see his shoulder blades pop, his spine, everything is perfect. So thin, and toned too. I get so jealous. I love how he looks... and I've noticed the last month, he is encouraging me with my diet and never eats. he admits it.
I wonder if he's trying to tell me something. I wonder... can we go through this together? I havn't seen him this skinny since we were both on hard drugs! I wish I knew. I love him so much, either way I love him. he is my thinspiration, I feel obsessed with his skeletal body. I guess it's a good thing to be obsessed with your boyfriends body! lol.
Still only the crystal light. 5 calories. I hate those five calories. Almost a perfect day.
I tried to work out, but I don't have any energy... maybe in a while. gotta get 30 minutes!
I drew some pictures, for some reason, I get really crative when I am fasting, I'm gonna put them on the website once I figure out how to use my scanner.
Stay Strong!
-KG-
I'm editing this entry because I don't want to post too many, but oh god, I drank 4oz of naked super food... 70 calories! I feel like I'm such a weak failure! I thought I was gonna pass out. So I had some. I feel better physically but mentally I feel worse. like a failure. Good thing I'm fasting till the 2nd. Tomorrow is halloween and I am spending the day hiding from candy, the scarriest part of halloween! No candy binges for KG, just fasting... oh and sleeping, I'm gonna try and sleep tomorrow. I need it. Day three is always the tough one for me, but I can do it. I WILL do it. I can't wait. I can't wait until tomorrow is a success, fasting through halloween means will power. I will be so proud of myself after tomorrow! The rest of the world is gorging themselves with candy, but I am not.