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Today looks like another absolutely beautiful day outside. Too bad I have to start doing schoolwork that I put off all spring break.
I still had a little trouble eating this morning, but it wasn't nearly as bad as it has been the past few days. I literally had to force the food down my throat, I was so anxious and everything tasted awful. But I know that not eating only leads to overeating once I'm not so anxious.
My meal at the park yesterday tasted like the best thing on earth because I was relaxed and not so anxious.
The Al-Anon meeting yesterday was great. This morning, I woke up several times to my beautiful cat Autumn laying on top of me. She hasn't done that in a really long time. I'm really trying to be more loving to everyone in my life, especially my cats and Justin. It's always those closest to me that I hurt the most. Autumn used to be so loving to me but she has really changed in the past couple months. I thought maybe it was because of Baby coming into the house, but now I think it might really be because I've been unloving to her. But I've really been working on changing that and being more loving to her.
He is the first thought in my mind every morning when I wake up. It's going to be really hard to not see him every day, but I know this is what he needs and at this point I really need to be able to give him what he needs. I need to use this time to do things for myself and work on making my life better.
I still had a little trouble eating this morning, but it wasn't nearly as bad as it has been the past few days. I literally had to force the food down my throat, I was so anxious and everything tasted awful. But I know that not eating only leads to overeating once I'm not so anxious.
My meal at the park yesterday tasted like the best thing on earth because I was relaxed and not so anxious.
The Al-Anon meeting yesterday was great. This morning, I woke up several times to my beautiful cat Autumn laying on top of me. She hasn't done that in a really long time. I'm really trying to be more loving to everyone in my life, especially my cats and Justin. It's always those closest to me that I hurt the most. Autumn used to be so loving to me but she has really changed in the past couple months. I thought maybe it was because of Baby coming into the house, but now I think it might really be because I've been unloving to her. But I've really been working on changing that and being more loving to her.
He is the first thought in my mind every morning when I wake up. It's going to be really hard to not see him every day, but I know this is what he needs and at this point I really need to be able to give him what he needs. I need to use this time to do things for myself and work on making my life better.