Lost all creativity. What now?
Well, I'm still unemployed. 6 months later. I've lost all will to do anything about it and I'm getting too comfortable sitting on my fat arse doing nothing.
Saying that, my fat arse is getting some exercise from having picked up running. I run 3 times a week now and am hooked. Only drug/feel-good/euphoria I experience in my life. I'd like to buy some new gear but can't justify spending the money as I'm not earning anything.
I did have a 1 day temp job yesterday. Wooptedoo. No more than that going on, it was a panic job as they realised they weren't going to finish the project in time in case they didn't get some more hands to help.
Basically how can you believe in yourself if no one else does, and how can anyone believe in you if you don't believe in yourself? It's an odd vicious cycle, I can't quite explain it. I can't afford to do a masters at the moment. I live in the country side too so short courses are limited and obviously don't start until the new school term starts in September.
Fuck it all, I'm sick of feeling like shit and useless. There. I needed to say it.
Tried to get into doing something about my dead websites. I opened photoshop and rage-X'd everything after I couldn't do anything in 10 minutes. I've lost the faith in my own creativity too. There, it's in writing. Anything else I can whinge about???
Saying that, my fat arse is getting some exercise from having picked up running. I run 3 times a week now and am hooked. Only drug/feel-good/euphoria I experience in my life. I'd like to buy some new gear but can't justify spending the money as I'm not earning anything.
I did have a 1 day temp job yesterday. Wooptedoo. No more than that going on, it was a panic job as they realised they weren't going to finish the project in time in case they didn't get some more hands to help.
Basically how can you believe in yourself if no one else does, and how can anyone believe in you if you don't believe in yourself? It's an odd vicious cycle, I can't quite explain it. I can't afford to do a masters at the moment. I live in the country side too so short courses are limited and obviously don't start until the new school term starts in September.
Fuck it all, I'm sick of feeling like shit and useless. There. I needed to say it.
Tried to get into doing something about my dead websites. I opened photoshop and rage-X'd everything after I couldn't do anything in 10 minutes. I've lost the faith in my own creativity too. There, it's in writing. Anything else I can whinge about???