I'm ba-ack! (X-posted)
Looking at my blog archives, I see that I’ve been writing something every month from June 2003 (and that’s as far as my archives go, I know I wrote before that, that was just the switch to movable type). Up until last January.
I feel completely out of date with everything, I’ve completley left most of my websites to their own fate, whilst doing what instead I don’t know. I find that all scripts I used to use are out of date and have “major security risks”, and I find it a dread to check my e-mail, just knowing the amount of spam and randomness I have to sort through.
The internet is not a fun place anymore.
I have to remember to update my fanlistings, and this time I actually let it slip a bit too long, as I didn’t update since August until today.
But I forget.
It’s so easy to forget chores, isn’t it? I find myself reading more things, than doing my own things. Participating in message boards is much cooler and entertaining than it was a couple of years ago, and I’ve found other things to occupy my mind with.
Sort of. I mean I’m still constantly bored out of my mind, and this has made my unbelievably lethargic regarding everything. I can’t be bothered to go to redundant tutorials one day a week - only lesson we have in a week regarding practical studies. And I find myself getting more and more alienated from the film making, and more invited towards the visual theory - which I btw chose a unit unrelated to my own course.
Passion and ambition is just not in me anymore. To be frank - I just can’t be arsed.
And that’s what happened with my websites. Now I’m simply revamping the whole site, because I found another purpose for it, and thought I might as well go through everything I’ve got on here, delete it, and revamp anything usable. And update the fanlistings which I so dearly hang onto.
I need to get more in touch with things, I’m getting embarrassingly bad at everything, just because I haven’t been practising. At the same time I find myself going to much simpler approaches to webdesign, rather than trying to impress with my fantabulous skills, which we all know I possess…
So what am I actually doing at the moment [in general]? Not a thing. Trying not to die out of boredom, and trying not to get too obsessed about losing the last of the “puppy fat” I’ve been trying to lose the last 6 years, which is pretty much what my life consist of (tracking what I eat and reading nutritional values on product labels). So maybe writing over-long posts like this will bring some life back into me. Or just cure the boredom for at least 10 minutes. Let’s hope so anyway.
I feel completely out of date with everything, I’ve completley left most of my websites to their own fate, whilst doing what instead I don’t know. I find that all scripts I used to use are out of date and have “major security risks”, and I find it a dread to check my e-mail, just knowing the amount of spam and randomness I have to sort through.
The internet is not a fun place anymore.
I have to remember to update my fanlistings, and this time I actually let it slip a bit too long, as I didn’t update since August until today.
But I forget.
It’s so easy to forget chores, isn’t it? I find myself reading more things, than doing my own things. Participating in message boards is much cooler and entertaining than it was a couple of years ago, and I’ve found other things to occupy my mind with.
Sort of. I mean I’m still constantly bored out of my mind, and this has made my unbelievably lethargic regarding everything. I can’t be bothered to go to redundant tutorials one day a week - only lesson we have in a week regarding practical studies. And I find myself getting more and more alienated from the film making, and more invited towards the visual theory - which I btw chose a unit unrelated to my own course.
Passion and ambition is just not in me anymore. To be frank - I just can’t be arsed.
And that’s what happened with my websites. Now I’m simply revamping the whole site, because I found another purpose for it, and thought I might as well go through everything I’ve got on here, delete it, and revamp anything usable. And update the fanlistings which I so dearly hang onto.
I need to get more in touch with things, I’m getting embarrassingly bad at everything, just because I haven’t been practising. At the same time I find myself going to much simpler approaches to webdesign, rather than trying to impress with my fantabulous skills, which we all know I possess…
So what am I actually doing at the moment [in general]? Not a thing. Trying not to die out of boredom, and trying not to get too obsessed about losing the last of the “puppy fat” I’ve been trying to lose the last 6 years, which is pretty much what my life consist of (tracking what I eat and reading nutritional values on product labels). So maybe writing over-long posts like this will bring some life back into me. Or just cure the boredom for at least 10 minutes. Let’s hope so anyway.