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I didn't think this day would come. . . I'm only six days away from completing my thirty day bikram challenge. HOLYSHIT. YES. I AM SO GONNA DO DIS AND IT GONNA ROCK MY WEEERLD.
My breathing has improved, my skin, hair and nails are out of control [part of the reason I stopped updating regularly is I can't type and it's annoying! ... part of my challenge is to not do anything drastic, don't cut my hair & nails, be patient, disciplined and wait it all ouuuut], I'm sleeping like a rock, I'm much calmer which has made for lovely, peaceful driving and customer service encounters. My lips are still megachapped but when I put lip balm on, all is well in the world.
Today was the third class I did not get so dizzy or tired I gave up to rest or catch my breath. I did every pose even if I fell out of it. If I did fall out, I got right back in. I made a really strong effort not to pause, fall behind, sit/lay down, kneel, etc. I just wanted to be able to get through an entire class and this is as close as it's ever come. I am still just doing my best.
The big question, I ask you all, is should I cancel my 24 HR gym membership which I only use a couple of days per month, and not for the real reason I still have that membership, which is to attend their kick ass classes. I used to go but they took away my step class and replaced it with yoga. Do not get me wrong. I love yoga. I love yoga twice a week, but I also loved my step and pilates classes which I think all target totally different body goals. I wanted my Step on Mondays, Pilates on Tuesdays and Yogas on Thursday but since life don't work like dat, I'm happy to pursue other things.. but now I have to choose. I certainly can't afford both, 24 is more economical, closer to home, but bikram is so friggin cool.
My goal is to do two classes, back to back, on Saturday. Keri [Conrad] inspired me to take that particular challenge along with her. We both have never done a double and we both were talking about how we're scared and think mebbe now is that time to get the fuck out of our comfort zones and challenge ourselves [again and again and again and how far will you go?]
Everything else is good. I get a little bored sometimes, but being by myself has been the best treat for my spirit. With Spring just around the corner, I'm ready to put my best foot forward, stay motivated for myself with whatever random project it is I want to work on, and move on with my happy, healthy life. Things aren't perfect and I have several obligations there is no getting out of, so I will enjoy the here and the right now.
Right now I have a Katchoo curled up asleep on the corner of my bed and I'm ready to read a chapter of one of two books I started. (Neither of which are on that silly BBC booklist....)
My breathing has improved, my skin, hair and nails are out of control [part of the reason I stopped updating regularly is I can't type and it's annoying! ... part of my challenge is to not do anything drastic, don't cut my hair & nails, be patient, disciplined and wait it all ouuuut], I'm sleeping like a rock, I'm much calmer which has made for lovely, peaceful driving and customer service encounters. My lips are still megachapped but when I put lip balm on, all is well in the world.
Today was the third class I did not get so dizzy or tired I gave up to rest or catch my breath. I did every pose even if I fell out of it. If I did fall out, I got right back in. I made a really strong effort not to pause, fall behind, sit/lay down, kneel, etc. I just wanted to be able to get through an entire class and this is as close as it's ever come. I am still just doing my best.
The big question, I ask you all, is should I cancel my 24 HR gym membership which I only use a couple of days per month, and not for the real reason I still have that membership, which is to attend their kick ass classes. I used to go but they took away my step class and replaced it with yoga. Do not get me wrong. I love yoga. I love yoga twice a week, but I also loved my step and pilates classes which I think all target totally different body goals. I wanted my Step on Mondays, Pilates on Tuesdays and Yogas on Thursday but since life don't work like dat, I'm happy to pursue other things.. but now I have to choose. I certainly can't afford both, 24 is more economical, closer to home, but bikram is so friggin cool.
My goal is to do two classes, back to back, on Saturday. Keri [Conrad] inspired me to take that particular challenge along with her. We both have never done a double and we both were talking about how we're scared and think mebbe now is that time to get the fuck out of our comfort zones and challenge ourselves [again and again and again and how far will you go?]
Everything else is good. I get a little bored sometimes, but being by myself has been the best treat for my spirit. With Spring just around the corner, I'm ready to put my best foot forward, stay motivated for myself with whatever random project it is I want to work on, and move on with my happy, healthy life. Things aren't perfect and I have several obligations there is no getting out of, so I will enjoy the here and the right now.
Right now I have a Katchoo curled up asleep on the corner of my bed and I'm ready to read a chapter of one of two books I started. (Neither of which are on that silly BBC booklist....)