Need a quiet Place to hide.
Hi Live Journal,
Its been along time old friend. And, like an old friend your still here when I need a quiet place t reflect on things. Five years has been much too long dear friend and I am sorry. I really have no excuse with you, you don't cause anxiety, and panic to visit with. It's so hard to explain sometimes, how I just can't get myself to be with, or around others. Life is a lot better on my meds, but lets face it I will never have a normal emotional structure.
I have changed a lot of things in my life recently. I have committed myself to getting my money squared away once and for all. I quit a lot of things: Gluten, caffine, processed sugars, grains, starches, dairy. My body feels good and I think it's helping me a lot physically, I just hope the mentally comes along too. I eat a ton of fruit, vegetables, and nuts, a good amount of meat, I feel alright doing this. I haven't had fast food in two or three weeks. No Aspartame either for about amonth.
Emotionally, I'm kind of a wreck. A couple songs lately have been causing strong emotional reactions for me that are hard to repress. I suppose I do have to deal with them, but really it has always been easier to just compartmentalize my brain and go about my day. But, these two songs have been breaking those down. I think, I will ditch this noble heart of mine, and if I ever find it again, I will fight for it with every breath, and not make stupid decisions to live in the now, or because I think it will make another happier. I bled enough for this noble heart, I wish it to beat no more, let it die so my happiness might live.
Live journal, I hope to be seeing you soon cheers,
the Emotionally challenged.
Its been along time old friend. And, like an old friend your still here when I need a quiet place t reflect on things. Five years has been much too long dear friend and I am sorry. I really have no excuse with you, you don't cause anxiety, and panic to visit with. It's so hard to explain sometimes, how I just can't get myself to be with, or around others. Life is a lot better on my meds, but lets face it I will never have a normal emotional structure.
I have changed a lot of things in my life recently. I have committed myself to getting my money squared away once and for all. I quit a lot of things: Gluten, caffine, processed sugars, grains, starches, dairy. My body feels good and I think it's helping me a lot physically, I just hope the mentally comes along too. I eat a ton of fruit, vegetables, and nuts, a good amount of meat, I feel alright doing this. I haven't had fast food in two or three weeks. No Aspartame either for about amonth.
Emotionally, I'm kind of a wreck. A couple songs lately have been causing strong emotional reactions for me that are hard to repress. I suppose I do have to deal with them, but really it has always been easier to just compartmentalize my brain and go about my day. But, these two songs have been breaking those down. I think, I will ditch this noble heart of mine, and if I ever find it again, I will fight for it with every breath, and not make stupid decisions to live in the now, or because I think it will make another happier. I bled enough for this noble heart, I wish it to beat no more, let it die so my happiness might live.
Live journal, I hope to be seeing you soon cheers,
the Emotionally challenged.