Fatty Patty
I have NO idea how many, if any at all, people still read this LJ, but if you do, I'm reposting this from Facebook. Sorry for a crosspost if it is one.
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What I am about to say might make some people angry with me but that is not my intent. What I am about to say is only for me, no one else. It might make some people disappointed in me, again, this is for me alone. So with that in mind, here goes.
I’m fat, obese, fluffy, hefty, thick, whatever label you want to put on it, I am (much) larger then society says I should be. I should be unhappy in this body, I should be discussed with the way I look, I should do everything in my power to be changing to fit into what is considered normal so people won’t make fun of me and I’ll be happier. You know what, F that!
I am so over it. I am a big woman, I always will be, it is in my genetics. Could I stand to lose some weight? Sure, most of us could, but you know what, I’m healthy, my husband still thinks I’m sexy and desirable and I’m sick of the roller-coaster of: diet, no weight loss, guilt and self-reprimand, stricter diet, cheating, guilt and self-reprimand. Like I said, I am SO over it. Even if I would drop to what I think is my ideal weight, I would still be FAT by society’s standards.
I don’t eat horribly. I eat lots of veggies, I RARELY drink soda and I have gleaned some better eating habits through the diet craziness. I do eat red meat and I don’t apologize for it, but I also eat fish and lots of chicken. I’m tired of hating myself if I want a damn piece of pie at dinner or a candy bar on my way home from work. I LIKE FOOD! I’m done denying it and done punishing myself for it.
I know there is a huge push right now, among my friends for sure, to lose weight. That is awesome! Those of you that have lost weight, or are working on losing weight, KUDOS! I’m not trying to diminish anything you have accomplished, I’m SO proud of you. However, I am no longer going to think less of myself for not being able to or even WANTING to do the same thing. I’m fat, and I’m going to be happy with the body I have built.
I am making a stand right now to end making myself feel bad because I’m not what I think other people want me to be. It is really none of my business what other people think about me. What matters is what I think about me, and I think I am pretty great. I am beautiful because of my differences, not despite them, and from now on I’m going to do my best to remember that.
Look out world, here comes Fatty Patty, and she isn’t making any more excuses for herself!