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My heart burns inside... My body hurts... My soul feels like its losing its place in me... I feel like everythings just failed on me, and I've failed on everything... I feel so empty... So lonely.
But I'm not entirely depressed... I don't get why. I have thousands of reasons why I should be. Ana and I are no longer together, which ripped me open from the inside out. I really couldn't take knowing I hurt her so much so often. I rarely sleep anymore... It's pretty much 6am, and I still haven't had any sleep. Thanks to me working 24-7 now at Best Buy and Starbucks and the fact that I'm always in constant pain.
I still have my few close friends though, I wish my other friends were closer. Thank you for those who showed up at my birthday party. Made me feel better from everything that happened earlier that day. I miss pure happiness.
But I'm not entirely depressed... I don't get why. I have thousands of reasons why I should be. Ana and I are no longer together, which ripped me open from the inside out. I really couldn't take knowing I hurt her so much so often. I rarely sleep anymore... It's pretty much 6am, and I still haven't had any sleep. Thanks to me working 24-7 now at Best Buy and Starbucks and the fact that I'm always in constant pain.
I still have my few close friends though, I wish my other friends were closer. Thank you for those who showed up at my birthday party. Made me feel better from everything that happened earlier that day. I miss pure happiness.