growing up sucks!
life since last post: rent was awesome, turkey day was good and life is alright....but i finally figured something out and makes my life make so much more sense....still kinda weird though.....but im actually making a conscience effort to change....wish me luck....i cant wait till christmas though.....still lots to do to prepare....but i will be home in two weeks...cant wait....i may have visitors this weekend which would be awesome, but i am not holding my breath....got finals next week...i should be studying.....weather is beautiful
got into a huge fight last week, and after this week, i realize this: yes, i love you, but i respect you in no way, shape or form....although you do inspire me, in the sense that i look at you and try my hardest to be nothing like you....you used up every single one of your chances that i gave you, and i am finally done...i am over it....if i dont do this now, i am afraid i will never do it, so in my effort to grow up, i am accepting the fact that we will never be more than we are now....and the best part is that i am not sorry.....
i really think im growing up....its crazy.....sigh....what can ya do?
got into a huge fight last week, and after this week, i realize this: yes, i love you, but i respect you in no way, shape or form....although you do inspire me, in the sense that i look at you and try my hardest to be nothing like you....you used up every single one of your chances that i gave you, and i am finally done...i am over it....if i dont do this now, i am afraid i will never do it, so in my effort to grow up, i am accepting the fact that we will never be more than we are now....and the best part is that i am not sorry.....
i really think im growing up....its crazy.....sigh....what can ya do?