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i only touch this thing when im at work and there is no possibility for me to myspace on my lunch break.
i've come the the funniest conclusion.
that makes me happy in the oddest way, but happy none the less.
i can come to terms with the fact that i surround myself with hundreds of people a week.
but im alone, all at the same time.
well not really. not entirely.
i've been meeting some really amazing people in these last couple of months.
but as always, im never satisfied. and the people whove been in my life the longest, are begining to not mean as much as i once made myself believe them to mean. but its ok.
because i like having my own life finally.
and i like being able to talk to people who dont know who any of these other people are.
and they are all such well put together individuals. who feel comfortable with themselves. regardless of slight or not so slight imperfections. and i'm moving on perfectly fine. wich makes life such an amazing thing to be a part of.
i have a crush on this boy from really far away who lives really close now.
and its good. because i think hes got a crush on me too. and he's exactly what i've always wanted to have a crush on...
but, i have a boyfriend. who has an amazing brain and is fun. but not exactly what i would see myself dating.
life hands you the wierdest cards. and i saw my dad last night.. first time in maybe 8 months. he's doing well, and my baby sister is huge. and beautiful. but i think my dad might have some sort of illness he doesn't want to tell me about...
this is going to be the last entry of this thing ever.
it just is.
i've come the the funniest conclusion.
that makes me happy in the oddest way, but happy none the less.
i can come to terms with the fact that i surround myself with hundreds of people a week.
but im alone, all at the same time.
well not really. not entirely.
i've been meeting some really amazing people in these last couple of months.
but as always, im never satisfied. and the people whove been in my life the longest, are begining to not mean as much as i once made myself believe them to mean. but its ok.
because i like having my own life finally.
and i like being able to talk to people who dont know who any of these other people are.
and they are all such well put together individuals. who feel comfortable with themselves. regardless of slight or not so slight imperfections. and i'm moving on perfectly fine. wich makes life such an amazing thing to be a part of.
i have a crush on this boy from really far away who lives really close now.
and its good. because i think hes got a crush on me too. and he's exactly what i've always wanted to have a crush on...
but, i have a boyfriend. who has an amazing brain and is fun. but not exactly what i would see myself dating.
life hands you the wierdest cards. and i saw my dad last night.. first time in maybe 8 months. he's doing well, and my baby sister is huge. and beautiful. but i think my dad might have some sort of illness he doesn't want to tell me about...
this is going to be the last entry of this thing ever.
it just is.