Just stating certainties.
Well after my "date" with Parissa tonight, thinking has brought me to the same conclusion to where i have been before. I don't like high school. I know this is how I feel and I am certainly not bitching, but it wouldn't matter if I was because I can if I want. But back to subject, I wish I were out of high school. When I'm older, looking back on it all will seem like all four years was just one big phase as it is. Moving onto something bigger and better than the time wasted on stupid drama-filled days. Its not worth my time yet I spend soo much of it still worrying. Everyone does it. They say its not worth their waking hours or its wasting their breaths yet they all do it. Everyody is a hypocrite in this never-ending cycle of just drama in this stage of life. I want to go beyond all of it and just worry about my actual life and whats going to happen to it. I want to be in college where I make new friends from out of state and literally start all over again. Living on my own sounds like an adventure all in its own and, yes, even paying rent. Or being in a sorority and meeting new people and just living in kind of my own new and improved world. I know its going to happen but I wish it came sooner than later because I need it now. I know I'm definetly not mature enough to be there but, if I did act the mature person I could be, I wouldn't have as much fun. I want to be "mature-fun" and "mature-mature". It probably all sounds like a big bunch of mesh from what I'm talking bout but it really does make sense. Like of course I want to still be friends with the people I am with now...but we all will have to eventually move on and make new friends because if you don't then you'll just be a figment of the past. Plus you all think I have no mature bone in my body but I do, I just most likely prefer not to show it. These are the years I am the most irresponsible, supposed to be the most out-going person I can be but when I am, I just get trampled on for it. So I guess its time to turn that to a different level and be somewhat mature about it. But whatever, this all can seem like just a bunch of bable but I'm just stating what I feel. Just 2 more long years of this phase and it will all be over. Hopefully 2 years can go by quicker than it sounds.
P.S. I miss my sister soo much and I wish I could see her and the one time where I have the closest chance I get it taken away from me from the one thing that just won't end and keeps, seriously, taking the life outta me!
P.S. I miss my sister soo much and I wish I could see her and the one time where I have the closest chance I get it taken away from me from the one thing that just won't end and keeps, seriously, taking the life outta me!