ever?

[vcp_sleepy_gb]

ever felt like you just wanna stop trying because it will never be the same? thinking people are just fucking with your mind, so confused not knowing to go on or not, keep trying give up, those are your choices both of them will always end up being the wrong one in your mind, so what the fuck, is it just me that wrong, i life wrong, shouldnt it all just end, everybody just stop fucking with people and really say what they're thinking instead of making them thikn theres something there that isnt, thats the way life should be, but is it, no it is not, why? because people cant make up there fucken minds, its even worse when they do something that just starts nawwing at your head, like bringing someone around, or just trying to forgive instead of having that one fucken mistake in they're minds. people need to be sure about how they affect other people and what the results will be, everybody should at least get one act of forgivness towards them, and if not they should not make a person think that they will get it sometimes or another, because if that is the case then it just makes matters much much worse, if that have doubts about and if it cant ever be the same, or almost. why the fuck even try? i just dont see the point if that doubt in their mind will always be there and will always make them think of the badsides instead of seeing how sorry the are, and how much love they have, they should look at the good side, not off the mistakes they've done, even if they are known for it, it does not mean they are not sorry for it, maybe they feel like shit, for this one time, just because this person means more to them than anybody has to them in a very very very long time, and if tehy were able to see maybe they would understand the heartache i have, and come to relize i truly do mean it when i say sorry, and that its not just me trying to suck up, i mean it, although sometimes it might not seem like just because im not a person to say things like that, hopefully this will make people think about how much they affect other people's lives and maybe just maybe then can come to forgiveness with them and tell them what they want, and bring the person out of confusion, instead of just making them think every fucken night about what the future holds for if its even worth all the pain and all this time, and if its all not all worth it, then they should let the person know that things will never be the same, and they will never forgive them or ever have trust for them again, and if that is the case , then let the person know this, so you dont fuck with teh person's mind, and get them to move on, or keep working at it; as they are doing at the moment, people like that care, they care a lot, maybe they dont should the ways you would, but its there, just gotta look for it a little bit,

well fuck it, im lost and confused maybe somebody can tell what the hell is going on, and what the future holds for me