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I just completely blew up at my mom.
I was watching tv downstairs and she said to my dad, "What are you going to wear to the shindig tonight" or something. And I asked, "Are you going somewhere tonight?" And she said, "Haley's birthday party.." Who is my cousin. And I just realized she'd done it again. She knew about something for weeks and didn't tell me until the day of. And I just lost it. I started screaming. Because she never tells me this stuff. She claimed she'd told me a long time ago and talked to me about Nicole coming, too, because Nicole was going to be visiting. But you know what? I would have remembered that, because that would have been a big deal. Dad says she did tell him about it, but doesn't deny that she might well not have told me.
I'm just TIRED of this. It's not that I don't want to go, I just resent having no idea about this and replanning my night around it. Hell, I wasn't even DOING anything tonight, but I have to prepare myself to go see family. I just do. It's too stressful for me.
It's not just about this stuff either. You know how I found out that my grandmother had cancer again and that she was having chemo? She was talking to a friend on her cell phone while I was in the car, told her and I happened to overhear. But I couldn't say anything about that. Because that would have caused a fight just like this one. I try so hard not to fight with her, because she takes it personally, but it just comes tumbling out sometimes.
She says, "Every time you blow up, it's always at me, never at somebody else." And I said, "Well, maybe that should TELL you something!!"
I was watching tv downstairs and she said to my dad, "What are you going to wear to the shindig tonight" or something. And I asked, "Are you going somewhere tonight?" And she said, "Haley's birthday party.." Who is my cousin. And I just realized she'd done it again. She knew about something for weeks and didn't tell me until the day of. And I just lost it. I started screaming. Because she never tells me this stuff. She claimed she'd told me a long time ago and talked to me about Nicole coming, too, because Nicole was going to be visiting. But you know what? I would have remembered that, because that would have been a big deal. Dad says she did tell him about it, but doesn't deny that she might well not have told me.
I'm just TIRED of this. It's not that I don't want to go, I just resent having no idea about this and replanning my night around it. Hell, I wasn't even DOING anything tonight, but I have to prepare myself to go see family. I just do. It's too stressful for me.
It's not just about this stuff either. You know how I found out that my grandmother had cancer again and that she was having chemo? She was talking to a friend on her cell phone while I was in the car, told her and I happened to overhear. But I couldn't say anything about that. Because that would have caused a fight just like this one. I try so hard not to fight with her, because she takes it personally, but it just comes tumbling out sometimes.
She says, "Every time you blow up, it's always at me, never at somebody else." And I said, "Well, maybe that should TELL you something!!"